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I have finally started to feel semi normal in terms of health. The last 3 weeks have been pretty brutal. I still am having a bout of something however nothing that the original antibiotics has not taken care of, the coughing was the worst and now it seems I have some weird intestinal thing going on and of course right before Christmas. I think it's just how this thing goes at the moment today is the first day things have been settled.
Girl is doing really well. Having her home is a good thing .. she seems to be more functional, she did go off her meds (and she was smart she didn't just stop she eased off, it does explain a LOT over the past 4 weeks). She didn't like feeling like half a person and she was really struggling with trying to make good connections. As she put it .. she was only operating at half tilt and it didn't feel like her. She's not anti meds and neither am I .. she now understands my view of taking a band aide to a surgical wound. She's fully taking responsibility for her therapy and is going to someone at her school and is working out how to pay for it. I'm sure I will be paying for the majority, I did tell her she has to get the price reduced it's just not an option. She is also realizing how much time and money she wasted in terms of not working last semester so that's also on her plate for the new semester.
My boy has decided that he's got to get his act together and is doing well with that also. It helps the conversation with his teachers who are backing me up on what I'm telling him and realizing if he wants to do the fun stuff he's got to do the work. He is very happy to have his sis home and I'm grateful for the two of them being together. Ask me in 4 weeks when I'm ready to be moving forward with the new year .. lol.
X is the X .. not doing anything else surprising which is good .. however he will be shocked at tax time. I'm going to continue to claim my son based upon his stupidity .. so I'm ok with that. I'm going to let him do him on that level.
I'm sure we will have a grand showdown this next year and it is what it is. He will go into court looking stupid and I am beyond ok with that.
Because I have been so ill I'm horribly behind with Christmas and my boyfriend has been fussy with me about it. That's ok because we are going to have a nice time any ways. LOL. He makes me laugh .. a LOT. He's only fussy because he's used to decorating a month before Christmas he doesn't understand it's been a LONG time since I have been able to get excited about Christmas and I get the tree up and things done the week before.
Anyway, things are good and I am grateful.
Life is settled and it is good.
S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
I am and that's a good thing. I think the only good part to come out of this is letting go of a whole bunch of crap emotionally and figuring out what is mine and what isn't. Doesn't make it easier, I think that's just over all part of the process sorting through the gunk of what I need to work on and what is just outside of my hula hoop.
I'm also doing a whole lot less justifying on why I feel like I do about certain things and like it don't like it .. just not my problem in that regard .. as long as I'm not being mean about it .. it just is what it is.
Remembering to breathe and just stay out of the whole issue of getting into things that are none of my business is a good thing. Still good to know information comes as it should and I don't need to worry about it.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
(((SerenityRUS))) Im glad youre feeling better and Im glad youre here. I love to read your experience, strength and hope on detaching with love! Since I began my program I no longer make a big fuss around the holidays and decorate much later than others do. My mother in laws jaw dropped when she saw I didnt have the little guys stockings up yet lol! I stayed in my circle of course :) I prefer to keep it simple and make Christmas about spending quality time with my family. Im sending hugs your way and I hope you and your family have a peaceful holiday.
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Stress is caused by being 'here' but wanting to be 'there'. Eckhart Tolle
