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i just read this from another member...oh my goodness, yep, i can relate. what is the solution for me...to protect myself..detach, remove myself from his active drinking, do not react, live in reality, accept what is and know only him and his his higher power can save him. I am powerless over his addiction, behaviors, thoughts, ideas, beliefs, ideas, what he does, does not do, what he says, what he does not say, what he feels, ect, I need to save myself, save me...do what ever I can to save myself. I need to put me first as I am not ready to die. I am not ready to go down with the sinking ship. I am going to get on the life boat in the sinking titanic ship. I am going to get myself strong, healthy, happy so I can walk away, with my dignity. I will plan my escape. I will leave the insanity. I will get myself happy. I will gain my strength, confidence, I will get friends, I will get help, I will get around people rather than isolate. I will speak out, I will find my voice, I will gain my self esteem. I will gain my truth. I will find my truth and stand my it. I will become positive and see the possibilities, rather then the emptiness that is there, I will look for choices, I will get out of the pain and hurt and find the hope. I will gain my self. I will get my inner strength back. I will move on, rather than be stagnant. i will live, while you die. I will laugh while you cry. I will live, really live while your isolate and die a slow alcoholic death. My wish is it would end soon so do not suffer no more. I will not suffer any more because you are. I will live and live the best life I can! I will live, without you!
yes, this is my understanding, my hope for me! I do not want to die just because he is. I have a future. I will not allow this disease to take me down. I am much better than that. I survived worse and I am still her and I will not let this disease be the death of me! NO. I will save myself any way I can and know of. I will use what ever tools or measures I can to save myself. I will leave, walk away, run to the nearest hotel room, think of a plan, an escape, have a plan ready, I will not, will not, let this disease take me down, no, no way!
"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
i just read this from another member...oh my goodness, yep, i can relate. what is the solution for me...to protect myself..detach, remove myself from his active drinking, do not react, live in reality, accept what is and know only him and his his higher power can save him.
this is a great aware .. reminds me to be grateful there is a plan to enable all this to happen .. the 12 steps with literature and sponsor .. it's also a Great read for me to remind my own self to continue to plan and pray for hp to continue to control and change the outcome of my 'past 'will as i slowly relearn to surrender it and make changes in what i will do different with others an hp helping me .. thanks for sharing this .. needed to read it
-- Edited by MeTwo2 on Monday 16th of October 2017 09:53:39 AM
needed to read it