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Well, tomorrow is the memorial service for my sister..I have called the girls, my BFF, my cousin, and NOBODY is home and I am feeling a bit lonely, so I thought I would stop in and say hello to my recovery mates and check up on how ya'll are doing
I'm hanging in there..One day at a time..Also, I decided that I am sick of being here in TX, no family, not many friends since I got out of the "social beer and partying scene" so I am doing research on perhaps in a couple to three years, selling out, and moving to AZ near the CA border where the girls are so I will be REAL close to my BFF and closer to my girls...
Having only me to "hang out with" isn't working anymore..So maybe HP is prompting me to make a CHANGE!!!
Its going to take 2-3 years to put my plan (and I know..put it to the universe..) into affect..Right now its research..Looking on line what property prices are around Western AZ...If it is right, the universe will "smooth my way"
I want to thank you all for the support hugs and compassion shown to me during this horrid period in my life..I think too many sad things in too short of a time, happening to me broke my spirit down quite a bit..
Honest!! I find myself doing goofy things, and its hard to concentrate, my emotions are a mess..I feel like I am "half gone"...I am really clinging onto the program...ODAT and keeping the focus on me....
I know the down side of life happens, but I think what has beaten me down so badly is that I would not be over the last disaster when the next one would hit...and this last sorrow was the stick that bent me down..Thanks to program, I am not broken, but I am emotionally "bent over" Like the willow in a hurricane, just trying to go with the wind, not fight it and hope to God I keep most of my branches..
Tomorrow, I will rest and maybe , maybe go for a swim , something light, not too strenuous...Lots of self care...Hanging onto my program..
Thanks for putting up with me this past, since July 25th...I think I could use a hug and some prayers that the bad karma is over for a while...
Hugs to all...Hope you all have a good and safe weekend....Love all the posts here...I've been reading and sending good , loving energy to all of you.......
-- Edited by mamalioness on Saturday 12th of August 2017 02:13:39 AM
((Rose))) Sending positive thought and prayers out to you. I support your plan regarding moving in a few years. Keep showing up -asyou are indeed a great example
Thank you (((((((((((((((((((((((family)))))))))))))))))) its been an awful ride, but I'm not thrown from the horse yet....I'm putting out energy that I am willing to change , even physically move, whatever it will take to end this being alone..At my age, I need to be near loved ones...I want to, when I grow old be within a decent driving distance from loved ones.....the ONE "hitch" is that I don't make enough SS and might have to work PT like I do here.....unless I make enough on this house and can "downsize" enough to "bank some $$ as I look for PT work or just make it on what I got"....And I just caught myself projecting, LOL...If this is right, all this will be a non issue.....i am putting this all to the Universal light forces ..In the meantime..."make the best of where I am at" I just don't have any close relationships here to make me want to stay....While I am still active and young/healthy, I will work...try to stash $$ in savings, cut out unnecessary spending, start cleaning out stuff I don't need or use anymore....If I do the "basic work" and put the energy out there, could be I will find where I belong in my older days.....Thanks for all the hugs and love energy.............grateful HUGSSSS back at ya'll
