The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
So a few days ago I felt so defeated. I was excluded from a family gathering, and learned that yet another family member dislikes my A so much, that she never wants to see my A again. For the first time in a very long time, I found myself crying which rarely happens anymore. But when I wrote on the board, I knew I would be fine relatively soon. And I was, and I am.
As time goes on I develop a greater understanding of how Alanon affects me, in so many positive ways, it's hard to believe. A non program person could not understand the value I receive from this program (value, blessings, miracles, etc.).
This may sound silly but on 7/4 I saw two freckles on my skin. A voice within (?) said to get the magnifying glass and sure enough I had two deer ticks. I went immediately to the doc and started antibiotics. How does that happen? I've learned to care enough about myself to take a minute , HP was talking to me, I don't know, but I am a very grateful member of Alanon, Lyne
It is soooo easy to get caught up in the whole FOO issue of things .. I so understand there are those moments of emotional outbursts so to speak that I often wonder where did that come from to at least know I'm not panicking that I'm stuck there!! LOL!
This too shall pass .. it's just a matter of time. :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
All I know about FOO is about the time I think I have it figured out, I am proven wrong over and over and over again. While I love them all dearly and am grateful for the fun memories I share with them, I and they are just in different places most of the time. I was the black sheep, always in trouble and stirring the pot for many, many years. I flew in/out and you knew when I was 'there'.
I've worked hard in recovery to be a part of and just roll with it all. I've been left out of many things over the years, primarily because I no longer drink and they all do.....it's a large family and alcohol has been the centerpiece of every family gathering since I was born. I was hurt for a while and like you, bounced back as I considered my life, my joy, my program.
Keep loving you and trusting the program and it just keeps getting better and better. I do seriously believe that the best is yet to come!!! (((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
((Lyne)) I am so pleased that you took the time to take care of yourself and to share your experience strength and hope here at MIP. I am sorry that you have endured this painful experience with your family and am impressed that you reached for your Al-Anon tools in order to not react. I will hold positive thoughts for a different outcome going forward.
