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wear overalls to my sons wedding? And bring Tavish with a nice bow on him?
Ok this is raw and gross.the truth I woke up from a night of nightmares. One huge long one. I wrote it in my journal to get it out.It was very bad.
I called mac and told him I just cannot do this picture thing, mom of groom, I cannot. I just want to go sit in the back when it first starts and watch them. I cannot go to a reception with all those people. for one My head feels like an overfull balloon and my back is bad becuz i fell flat on it the other day.
My hand is dead asleep and cannot imagine wearing a brace as they all have been CHEWED ON BY DOGS.
I fianally found my dress. It is covered in dog hair, cat hair, feathers whatever else could stick to it in the closet, did. I get the duct tape to try to get it all off. Then said )(&*(&%^&&)(!!! And got out another dress. I suppose "normal people" get their cloths ready a while before.?
started ironing it. oh yes dried mud. I get a washcloth and start getting it off. This dress is a nice cranberry color. the top is that elastic gathered thing with a straight down fullish sorta skirt. no sleeves, there is anice simple short jacket with a round neck and acroos the front are different ribbons. its nice. It is rayon so it lays so pretty. I start to iron the dress. the seam is out. ok that is easy to fix. As I iron, dry mud dry, mud dry mud. I wash it off. "everything will be ok, everything will be ok" sigh get it all done, seam sewed, look at it, there is a big black wet spot with crumbly stuff on it, Sauveur is walking away. ???? He slobbered on it after he ate.
"EVerything Will bE ok." ok the gross part. under stress my digestive system is very unladylike.noises that make people laugh, happen with no control.
"see why I must sit in back??" I am seriously thinking, can I really cork up my rear?? or would that make my colon blow up?
so here I am sitting here when I should be soaking my ugly fingernails and toes and whatever people do to look "presentable."
And how come Sauvey is barking more and killing my head? On top of that, "I have hives." yes my arms are itching and my chin. Ok macs friend cory brought the van over for me again. I will not be putting hay in it.
cory parked it next door. ? I have no idea how come. so now that means I have to wear rubber boots in my dress and walk over there. And pray no mud splats on me. OH and I MUST remember to grab my shoes. everrrythinkkng will beea okay.
My head hurts, icannot breath. Maybe I can sneak one of my rats with me to pet. they are quiet. Just put it in my purse. whynot? I would take a guinea pig but omg one squeak and I am found out.
Ya see and not to put a DAMPER on this lovely day is my whole family who used to do this stuff together is all dead,dying and living thousands of miles away. mostly dead. going alone is not, well, it is sure not something most people would choose to do.
ok gotta soak my fingers and try to get my hands from sanctuarly debilyn to Debra, mature woman, mother of the groom. I just cannot be what I am not. prissy is not me.
HOpefully I can make it to the church, then not cringe at christendom stuff I don't agree with and they cannot show me where it is in the Bible and "be still." love,debilyn soon to be Debra, at least on the outside
I promise I am laughing with you and not at you. Just reading your post caused me some anxiety. I hope that everything goes off without a hitch, or rather just the one hitch...you know what I mean.
(((Mother of the Groom))) I promise you if any of us is a filmmaker, you're gonna be RICH cuz of course they'd have to get this all in a comedy and you'd get something out of it. Please update us after the event. --Jill
You know what? The groom doesn't care what you are wearing, or how you look. He loves you, and wants you there to share this day with him. You know who you are, be proud of that. The people at the wedding who would judge you because of dress, etc, don't matter. Those who care for you don't love you because you are well groomed and 'clean up good'. They love you because of your heart and spirit. Go - dance, laugh, have something nice to eat and drink.
Debilyn I agree with Lin you could turn up in a sack and your son would not care. You know what makes him proud ? To have you alive and able to attend in the first place. After all you have endured just making it to the wedding is huge. As for your IBS I suffer from it and I know how nervous it makes you. You worry about having to make a quick exit, watching the food you are going to eat just in case. Here is a tip for the future I have started drinking pure aloe vera juice and the results are amazing. Go to the wedding. If you are not well just stay long enough to see your son marry the one he loves and maybe you will recapture for a moment what we all dreamed of when we first got married. All your deceased relatives who are so special to you will be watching down from above in the form of angels. Luv Leo xx
gosh, i can so relate to your post. it made me laugh b/c i do the same thing sometimes. i hate having to get dressed up b/c i have nothing to wear and i usually end up going out and spending money i do not have just to look good for others...ugh! my heart goes out to you, weddings are stressful. if i ever get married, i'd like it to be on a mountaintop somewhere. simple dress, no stockings, and flowers in my hair..(gosh, am i a hippie?) i'd want my friend to bring her labs and kids running around playing hide and seek and catching fireflies. and i'd want people to come, only if they want to...not out of obligation. i pray you find some serenity today and that hp sends you something wonderful to counteract all the craziness going on now ... this too shall pass ~
What a terrible day for you. I agree though, your son wants you there and won't care about all the things that seem overwhelming to you. Days like this are best handled with humor and who better to pull that off than you. I hope you went and kicked up your heels if only a short time.
Please don't beat yourself up about ANYTHING, you've been through a lot lately and you deserve to feel your feelings. All of us here and all of your critters need and love you. Do something for Debilyn tomorrow, it's suppose to be a nice day.
