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So when my qualifier and I were close we used to fly remote control airplanes together. I miss it. I also realize some of my insaine behaviour while a part of the group. I would like to fly again. I however feel shunned by some in the group. Of course my mom does not want me to fly again because she doesn't want me to get hurt by him or the group. I am conflicted. I want to continue to grow. I just don't know whether that is what will happen? Or if things will just be made worse by my presence and involvement.
TF .. I think my question is do you have a sponsor and are you going to meetings. I find when I do the things I need to do to take care of myself .. Those answers are things I need to come up with when I'm ready. Hugs keep coming back .. :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Be careful of returning to past thoughts, feelings and behaviors because as for me those are the open doors to practicing my disease. I know about those things and I was comfortable with those things and my habits are there which makes it so much more delusional and them simple for other characters of this disease to return and then???
Tealfighter - For most of us, the patterns, habits and behaviors happened over the course of time. I was one who really wanted to rid myself of my defects and my pain and had to be slowed down by a sponsor. Working the steps as written in order gave me the best chance of serenity for the long haul. In working the steps, I found out much about me, and how to do things differently in the hopes of a different outcome.
I fully understand missing an activity that you enjoy - perhaps instead of returning to 'that group' you could find another if it means that much to you. There will always be a chance to make proper amends when timing is right. Just a thought.
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
