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So, this AM I had to take my state securities law and financial advising combined exam. I failed it. Missed it by 1 question. I am in a very dark place right now, which I didn't expect. After failing my other exam twice and then taking a third time to pass, I thought I was done with failing tests. I guess not.
I had heard it was a difficult exam. But, hey, a 3 hour exam is a heck of a lot easier to swallow than the 7 hours I had to do to pass the 7. I put in 3 weeks of nearly non stop studying. I felt very confident going in to the testing facility this AM. And, even during the test I was feeling pretty good. I knew there were some things I guessed on but I felt like they were good educated guesses.
The good news is, I work for a fantastic company and they are still moving me forward with their program. I will start studying for my life/health insurance exams and will hopefully get those done while I wait a month to re-test for my Series 66. I feel like I've let this company down to some degree. They have put their faith and their money behind me and here I am still dragging myself along trying to pass these dang tests.
So, for today, I will lick my wounds and try to empty my brain. Allow myself a day of rest and then get back in the saddle tomorrow while I figure out what I need to do to get my insurance licensing complete. This has been a huge test for me and I truly hope my perseverance pays off. This has bene a very difficult few months for me career wise. Just praying that I'm on the right path and that God has me right where I need to be.
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Never grow a wishbone where your backbone ought to be!
Hugs .. I think bad mouthing failure is not the way to go .. there is a saying fall down 7 times get up 8. Just keep getting up and you will get there .. I know it's frustrating however it is what it is and without failure you can't know success. So again just keep on keeping on .. you will get there and it will be ok. That company is lucky to have someone who continues to try .. those tests are not easy so cut yourself some slack!!
S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
(((Andromeda))) - darn it, darn it, darn it......so sorry - urgh! My best suggestion is the simple things we know in recovery - asset list and gratitude list and let it go.....as far as your company - like me, they see you differently than you see yourself. They see a smart, worthy, dedicated, hard-working employee that adds value and will add even more when certified. I am almost certain that many fail the first time as those tests are not just hard - they are very, very, very hard!!
You are worthy, you are dedicated and you got this! Sending you tons of (((hugs))), positive thoughts and prayers!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I admire your persistence and willingness to go forward with this. Your story is a terrific example to me of the value picking yourself up. shaking everything out and moving on. I see someone who is determined, dedicated and sensible.
Thank you for taking the time to share your story, you set a good example. My program often goes off onto tangents. I swear to myself I won't repeat a behavior, I promise myself to apply myself and rely on my HP...and inevitably get some of it right and some of it wrong. It's discouraging sometimes, and I beat myself up for failing...compounding my error by diminishing my own self-esteem and faith in my HP. In reality, that self-recrimination holds me back, when what I need a "tomorrow is a new day" reset button.
All of this makes me think of my (mis)adventures with Step 7. I am tempted to think of the 7th step as the "Shazam!" step. I read "Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings," do so, and then want to lean back and have my defects removed. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way - it's closer to that old chestnut of Q: How do you get to Carnegie Hall? A: Practice, practice, practice.
All good wishes to you, courageous lady.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
So sorry to hear about the test. As long as we're alive, we'll never be done failing tests - and passing them too, of course. You win some and lose some - that's the way it is, always.
But I'm encouraged to hear that you are picking yourself up again. Continuing to push forward is a sign of tremendous strength and health. In fact, I've heard this is the difference between successful people and unsuccessful people - it's not that the successful ones never fail. They do fail - sometimes a lot. But they keep trying even when they fail.
Failure is such a harsh word for what really amounts to a mere consequence of trying. I beleive your failure has lead to persistence and eventually that leads to success. Look at how much you've turned stuff around and even when you've been scared you've still kept moving. I really admire that quality and wish you lots of good study vibes for the next round.
