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VERY SCARY FEW DAYS. ER TRIP/STRESS TEST/DOC VISIT. gUESS MY CALM AND SERENITY RAN OUT. DOC SAYS IM VERY STRESSED AND TRYING NEW MEDS. HE SAYS IM SCARED BECAUE IM 60 AND HAVE NO SAFETY NET. IM MOVING IN BOYFRIEND,S HOUSE, HAVE VERY LITTLE MONEY,UNEMPLOYED, OUT OF UNEMPLOYMENT,HAVE A WELFARE FOOD CARD AND MED-CAL ONLY. I HAVE DONE SO WELL THIS PAST YR WITH HARDLY AN ANXIETY WHIMPER....WAITING FOR DISABILITY THAT I KNOW IM NOT GETTING. IM NOT ON PITY POT, JUST REPORTING WHAT IM GOING THROUGH..........................
((((YARN)))) I know those shivers myself from the past along with what I learned to keep them beyond arms length. I am metaphorical...I see life in the process of pictures...mental pictures and movies and slides which gave my recovery life and still does. One of the best slide shows I've had in recovery is the one where I climb up into the open arms of my HP and sit in his lap and allow myself to just be held softly. I am in my 70ies and it still works...I won't ever not be my HP's child that is unconditionally loved and cared for. When I do this my whole system...mentally, emotionally and physically calms down. Wish it for you.....((((hugs))))
(((Alyce))) -I too am sending you positive thoughts and prayers....so sorry for this stage and phase - remember that this too shall pass!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
((((Alyce))) from one who has been to ER many times with stress and heart issues....healing thoughts and prayers. It is scary when you ate in ER and the are hooking you up with wires and monitors and poking and probing. Often they give you a warm blanket and it helps me to think that is HP wrapping his arms around me. Hope your new meds ease the anxiety and you can lift your spirit.
