Hi Everyone my father died 2 weeks ago at the age of 86 from liver disease.  He was an alcoholic  of course.  We had a very difficult relationship and I have worked on it for many years as I am in my 50s now.  I have prayed to forgive him and worked the steps.  At the end I tried to call him and he said something very mean , as usual.  I was hurt but prayed to release it. I let go of trying to change him years ago and kept my distance.  I am crying A LOT and the therapist i am working with states that I am grieving NOT being loved by my father he simply did not know how or want to learn.  It is harsh but true.  I find difficult relationships the hardest.  Does anyone have any AL ALON suggestions of literature for grief.  I do NOT want to do this alone and i am reaching out. I use the phone bridge and reaching out to friends.  I do not go to in person meeting in my town as people cross talk and do not follow the suggestions.  I am grateful for any wisdom and comfort.  thank you!