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Things have really piled up on me the past month. My rent was increased, my payment plan for one of my credit cards has expired.Im still unemployed and on unemployment and food aid.
I realized that i couldnt hack the rent even if disability came through. since i ran out of choices..im going to be moving into boyfriends hoarded house it really will cost me very little so i can catch up a bit. My guy and I had planned to have him sell that house and buy a new one and then i was supposed to move in.
This is not what i thought i would do when i left my xah,divorced him nearly a year and half ago. I had planned to get a decent job and be totally independant,strong etc.
dont get me wrong, im very happy with my boyfriend but im soooo far from my planned path. I went for a job interview monday and still want to work despite everything and remain my own person. that is one of the lessons ive learned through alanon to preserve 'me'
Always darkest before the dawn, or so they say and I've found it to be true. 2 years ago I didnt have a home for myself and child or money to pay for anything we needed and thought we were done for. But doors opened and things worked out OK; not perfect but well enough for me to make the most of them. And i'm kind of grateful for those dark times because I got through them and I feel more confident now just knowing that i could and did.
Hugs. Now (I think) is the perfect time to let go and let your HP take care of things and not get stuck in how it "should" be. It might all turn out absolutely great
As a wise person often says to me , HP didn't carry you this far just to drop you now....
((Alyce)) HP works in mysterious ways. Please remember that His view is all inclusive. i found HP never followed my plan for my life but it all worked out Keep showing up.
(((Alyce))) - I have found that it's good to make plans but it's not good (for me) to assume the outcome I want/thought would happen is the 'best one'. I don't do change well, so it's easy for me to get scared when it happens. However, time and time and time again, I've witnessed the miracles of God's work in my life and the life of others.
Breathe, breathe, breathe and focus on what's good! I've had to get better about gratitude lists and assets lists especially when I am fearful. They both seem to help me 'see' the way life unfolds when we walk a spiritual path.
Sending you positive thoughts and prayers!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I'm so far from where I want to be too! I understand. My son's school costs are killing me financially. I am struggling to get a career going and off the ground. I owe way more on my car than it's worth! UGH!
Hugs to you!!!
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Never grow a wishbone where your backbone ought to be!
