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So, the weed smell is back in H's car and he's enjoying the liquor his son gave him for his birthday last week. Working my program but feeling suspicious and watchful just the same. Left for work this a.m. and temporarily entertained the thought of looking in his console for his stash before leaving the garage. (He was in the bathroom, headed for the shower.) It HAS to be somewhere!! I just know it. I've never been a snooper or a measurer or a marker, but dang it sometimes my control gene kicks in and I don't want to wait for more to be revealed. In this case, my sense of propriety, dignity, program-ity prevailed and I got in my car.
Thank goodness. FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER he came into the garage to ask me something before I backed my car out. HP sure has a sense of humor. I flashed to how horrified I'd feel to get caught rummaging in his car. I don't want him rooting through my stuff -- that's what stopped me in the first place. More was revealed to me. I know now just how much I don't want to get caught a la Lucy Ricardo and have some 'splainin to do. Enjoying laughing at myself about this one.
Good on you for finding humor!!! I spent too much time "playing spy" in my home before recovery - and when I scored and confronted, of course, it was old or it was someone else's or it must have been from before my last raid or ...........................................................................
I have it a bit easier now as 2 of my 3 qualifiers no longer live here. My AH knows to keep anything hiding or I'll dump it out. I don't even say anything to anyone - I just dump it and put the bottle in his trash can. I've not had to do that for a long while now and we never discussed the dumping or the empty bottles - I just said I needed to live in a sober home and would not tolerate alcohol here.
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Hope the choice you made felt good - I always find a bit of comfort when I am able to make a sane choice!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Yes, Hp does have a way of showing us the error of our thoughts even, but often in a humorous way if we will listen. I'm so glad you made the sane choice. I have been there, too. Thank HP for this program and it's tools.
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
