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Well. After a relapse last week my dry husband woke up this morning with our three year old so I could sleep in. After about an hour he was rummaging around our bedroom so I got up. He was walking into the wall, shaking, and speaking incoherently. Immediately I knew he had taken something. He cried and said he was having a nervous break because he didn't sleep all night or something. I just gave up. I said "you're sick you need help. Get out of the house. Call that guy you met last week that's in AA. Do something or I'm admitting you to the hospital." He spent 20 minutes trying to use his phone until he finally went down to his car. He came back saying he was meeting with this guy for coffee. He came back from coffee claiming he officially asked the guy to be his sponsor and he was gonna do 90 meetings in 90 days. He's been "going" to AA for awhile but says it's a BS cult. I'm 35 weeks pregnant and have officially hit my limit. He's sick. I get it. But I'm not gonna raise two kids alone. He can be sick but dammit he's gotta get better if he's gonna stay in our lives. Sigh. Just another exhausting day. Thank you all for listening and understanding.
-- Edited by hotrod on Sunday 11th of December 2016 06:52:53 PM
Hoping it is a first step. Are you attending face to face Al-Anon meetings? Your husband had a rough morning (I have experience with those) and he did the best he could with it seems...90X90, sponsor, working the steps, not drinking are but a part of getting on the journey and I will not judge him. Many told me my journey was jagged and messy and still as crazy as it seemed I kept coming back and held on to a power greater than myself. Both programs work when we work them and if we don't they won't" Prayers and support for you and your alcoholic and your children. ((((hugs))))
Sending you positive thoughts and prayers - please take care of you and get your own support in local meetings! You too can find a sponsor and work on your recovery - whether he's successful or not. Keep coming back - one day at a time!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Thanks everyone. Yes I attend a weekly face to face meeting as much as possible. It's on sundays and I missed today because well it was kind of crisis mode. The funny thing is after he relapsed last weekend I FINALLY began praying. Hard, specific letting go of control PRAYING. Last week I prayed constantly that this guy he had met a couple weeks ago would help him see the light and I prayed that he would begin to work his steps.
After this horrible morning my husband is now eager and admitting his issues and for the first time in our relationship he's admitting that there IS a higher power and he believes this guy (now sponsor) was brought into Starbucks that day by god. I think God is listening. I'd forgotten the power of prayer. But will continue with this as I work through al anon.
Thank you everyone. It was a rough start to the day but I feel something may possibly have shifted today for my alcoholic.
Just kidding. He overdosed tonight. My apartment building had fire department in front of it at 10:30. I ran outside to see my neighbors screaming that my husband was unconscious and not breathing. Somehow during or right after his first 90 meetings in 90 days he decided to shove a fentinol (spelling?) patch in his mouth and it almost f*** killed him.
-- Edited by hotrod on Monday 12th of December 2016 07:17:49 AM
Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way. The disease is stronger than any human power and I am sorry for your pain. If possible, I would get to more meetings and work your program as best you can. (((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I am sorry prissykity for your pain and that of your husbands as he is in the midst of this terrible disease. My prayers are with you that he will find his way. Take care of yourself the best that you can during this time.
