Welcome Babanasandcustard, I am sorry to read that alcoholism affected your childhood and is continuing today in your life. There is help and hope .

AA is the recovery program that has helped many who suffer from this dreadful disease. AA has face to face meetings in most communities and the hot line number can be found in the white pages, Please follow up. Here is the web site that can offer assistance: aa.activeboard.com/forum.spark.

Positive thoughts and prayers on the way.