It's been quite a while since I last shared in this forum, but I have always been here reading and reflecting on the shares here.  I think just like everyone here we all started so lost, confused, asking, seeking, angry, crying, pitying... and we share one thing in common, our loved one, loved ones, loved once are into problem drinking in varying degrees and we are affected by this also in varying effects.

Most if not all experienced some sort of miracle, clarity, relief and a better direction...  I am one of them and as of this moment here is my share:

I have stopped posting in the message board for a while and am inclined not to post on impulse. I find myself more confused as I do so. I continue to read and "listen" to the shares, I then "listen" to myself, and then I kept silent without any reaction, not agreeing nor contradicting. Then I make reflections. I realized that what I read and heard from the others are TRUE, they are true for them, it is their truth. I also realized that some of their truth are also my truth. I have to listen to my truth as unique to me, it may be similar but not exactly the same. I would pick up life lessons and learning experiences from others, I apply it to myself as I see them applicable. As they say experience is the best teacher, it may be your own or of others. As any other learning process, sometimes you perfect it, sometimes not. And then you go on with life, still learning. As in schooling, you go to the next level when you passed one, never ending. Life is a learning process, you graduate when life ends. I can only say decisions and actions has its consequences, who is to judge. Who can tell what could have happened if I choose one over the other, not even I can exactly tell. I have to be gentle to myself that whatever it is, I did it out of my best knowledge, best effort and best hopes. The outcome is always beyond me, result could be failure, success or mediocre. It doesn't matter how others perceive my situation or what they think I should do. All I know is that as long as I'm completely honest and open to myself, I hold within me the truth, and I can always act based on my own truth. And that there is "something" in me that I could not explain. It is in me, but it is not me, I truly believe it is GOD.