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I am still so excited, I have my own apartment. I went there today and dropped off my emergency stuff I had kept in the car in case I had to leave the house due to ABF drinking. I am still at the house with him but I know today, I can leave at anytime. I just need to take some things and go to my apartment. I feel such relief. I do not feel tied to the house with him and his behaviors anymore. I can leave and go to my safe place. I have not moved any furniture in yet but if I have to, I will take what I need and have a safe place. I have taken an inventory of what I need and will hire someone to move the heavy stuff over, when the time comes. In the meantime, I am here with the sober ABF today and enjoying the day! What a relief to know, I have a safe place I can go anytime/any day and not be living in fear anymore. I am so proud of myself. Today, the ABF is sober and that is a blessing. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. I went to an open AA meeting this morning and that was great! It was so good to hear positive message after hearing such negativity from drunk alcoholic. I went to a an al-anon meeting yesterday and It was great! I feel such pressure taken off me. I do not feel connected to ABF now, I feel free and know today, I have choices and a safe place to go! I know that this miracle happened only because I had enough absolutely enough of the alcoholic binges that were becoming more and more dangerous to my mental state. I thought I would loose my mind completely and being homeless as I had been, I was running away from alcoholic, staying at my sisters home and hotels, I said enough is enough, I need a home. I cried and cried as I needed a home so bad, and today, because of the effort I put in, I have a home where I can be safe. Its a true blessing. I do not know how long I will be staying here with ABF in the house, it will depend on his drinking. If he starts up again, I know I have to get a moving company and take the furniture to the apartment! I at last have hope and a feeling of freedom!
Good on you Joker for having a safe Plan B! Also, kudos for going to meetings. For me, a meeting always helps to remind me that life is a gift, serenity is a blessing and if I am focused on me, nothing can stand in my way for peace/joy!
Keep working it - still sending positive thoughts and prayers!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Well done Joker. Im happy for you. Its great to have choices. Keep up the meetings, that feeling of freedom you have! well theres much more to come if you work this programx
It is wonderful to read the excitement in your typed words Joker and the message of hope and feeling at home finally. Keep working your program and I know more wonderful things will continue ....Blessings <3
So relieved for you! I can feel your excitement radiating off your words and reminds me of the relief I feel when away from my husband and the darkness that seems to envelope our house. Good on you for doing what's best for yourself.
