I got the job .. I'm so happy.  I have been working at a non profit company since March of this year after the whole Justin ordeal and it has been a sheer blessing we well as joy.  I get to help families who are in worse off situations than I have been in and it truly feels good to be a part of something bigger than me. 

So that was nice to come into after the chaos that were my daughter's senior pictures. LOL . never send a teen without a list of questions to ask .. that child made me crazy yesterday and thankfully we were both laughing AFTER it was all over and we were leaving the parking lot.  I managed to loose the girl and she did not have her phone because in all of the years girl has had a phone .. it was broken.  I'm getting an upgrade which I can't afford however at least I won't have to worry and girl will get my phone. 

The idea that I can have time off paid holidays and so on .. omgosh what a blessing coming into the holiday season. 

Back to school stuff for the kids is crazy at the moment.  I am not thrilled as it is one more thing for me to put into an already overcrowded schedule.  Getting daughter into college is the next hurdle.  She's already picked out a college and based upon my income we should qualify for full tuition aide.  So her first year is covered .. I told her it's up to her to get the scholarships and so on.  On one hand she's doing brilliantly on another she's really struggling with her anxiety.  She talked about getting a dorm to herself and honestly I do not think that's a good idea at this point.  Thankfully she will only be 35 min away from boy and I so we can go and get her on the weekends .. very happy about that. 

Son is doing well and looking forward to his next year.  Trying to keep him in the same district .. it's proving to be challenging.  It's just going to be what it's going to be and I have asked him about counseling which he is rejecting at the moment.  I don't like that however .. I'm not going to push him.  He's not a let's talk about how I'm feeling kind of kid .. and I want to be respectful of that and let him figure a few things out .. he knows I'm here for him.  I can provide whatever help he is asking for through services and he knows this.  I do need to start going back to church .. he loves that.  I know it would be good for all of us. 

My daughter has asked me if I want to start going back to alanon on a regular basis and that she would come with me.  HOLY COW .. yes, I'm finding a meeting immediately.  She made the comment about how involved I used to be and that she knew I still worked on things on my own however she knows I miss my program friends.  I know she worries about me a lot.  It's like I told her .. it's going to be ok .. we just all have to take the next right step forward and keep moving forward. 

Anyway, job .. yah .. woo hooo .. very happy!!  The people there are amazing.  They truly are. 

Hugs S :)