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My parents were alcoholic. I.ve seen my father so drunk he xouldn.t stand. I.ve seen my mother cry and pray and try to fix him. I.ve seen my father try to kill himself with a gun. I.ve seen my father push my mother around and us kids defending our mother. I.ve seen my father soil himself, be arrested, disappear, be homeless, beg and cry. I then seen my mother turn to alcohol to ease the pain. I was known in town as the drunks kid. I been left I cars behind bars for hours at a time. I.ve seen tension and unhappiness so thick you could cut it with a knife. Now I do not trust anyone. But I do see hope here. But I am scared.
What Jazzie said. One of the nice things about the meetings and here is the anonymity. If you are scared, noone will be able to know you personally unless you choose to. And then just working on our first step - it sounds like you are part of the way there. We have to admit that our lives have become unmanageable due to alcohol. That is an act of awareness and acceptance. It will reassure you that others are also powerless, but have come through it. Many people I know who have come through all this, working the steps, have become the strongest people I know.
But it does take that first step. Keep coming back.
Aloha Minnie and welcome home. I am happy you made it and found this family. You have a great Higher Power which kept you alive so that you could be here with us as we escape the horrors of this life ending disease. Prayers for your Mom and Dad; hope they receive the miracle you just did and find groups of recovering alcoholics which will help them change their lives also. The hot line number for Al-Anon in your area might be in the white pages of your local telephone book otherwise got to Al-Anon.org and find it...it will help you save your life. There are twice daily meetings here also on Eastern time schedule so look at the face page for the information. This board is open 24/7 unless something pops up to haunt it for a short while. Glad you are home...keep coming back ((((hugs))))
I too offer (((hugs))), prayers and positive thoughts to you for your healing from the affects of this disease. Keep coming back!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
