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So someone brought up dating and divorce .. I had to be completely divorced before I decided to start going out again .. that's just me I prefer to just close a door as much as possible since we have kids together it will always be an issue of my ex will be somewhere in the background regardless if I like it or not.
Anyway, one day I was driving in for a cup of coffee and there was as there always is random construction in the lovely state of Texas and for those who have experienced Texas driving .. ehe .. it's kind of scary at best .. lol .. I have literally seen cars do things I was completely unaware of or I had only seen on TV .. just happens to be Texas. I love Texas so I don't know what that says about me .. LOL!
Oops there I go again digressing, .. lol .. anyway, my coffee and I have been down this road a million times as it's a main drag. I become aware that I'm not going exactly the same way I should and hmm .. why is there on-coming traffic coming up? So I was like oookk .. no worries I'm just going to wake up a little more and figure out what's going on .. well what do you know some construction guys had come out and started working early .. someone moved the cones and I was off-roading along the ways on the road however NOT going the way I needed to be going.
This is embarrassing enough, .. as I check my rearview mirror I realize that there is a line of cars behind me (1 - 4 I chose not to count .. lol) who had decided to follow me through. Holy cow .. NOW I'm like WTH do I do now .. LOL. I'm doing this funky turn getting on the right road .. people behind me are like WTH realize that I now realize I have made a mistake of sorts .. LOL. I started laughing a great deal and just said OMGOSH well let me get back up on the right road .. LOL. Rule of the day .. don't follow me I really don't know what I'm doing .. apparently I do a really good job of selling I know what I'm doing .. LOL!!
As I started dating I'm having similar experiences .. I am driving thinking ok .. I got this .. and next thing I know is someone has moved the cones and I'm left going umm .. where am I and looking behind me thinking A) has anyone seen and B) is anyone behind me. Trying to establish am I even on the same road!?
I just seriously had to laugh though because the truth of the matter is that's what dating is like for me. I'm starting to become an expert at off-roading which may or may not be scary as hell. It just is what it is and I adjust my sails or in this case my driving look at where the cone are and just readjust where I need to be .. LOL .. seriously don't follow me Google Maps hates me and that has seriously been decided without question. I just kind of figure that it is the God of my understandings way of waking me up here and there .. LOL .. I sing the song to the left to the left or to the right to the right .. LOL!
It is also one date at a time and realizing that not everyone is on the same page as I am and that's ok .. the whole dating game thing I'm trying to figure out as well .. LOL .. people are so very odd even in the over 40 range .. LOL. I'm just trying to do my best and have a great deal of fun with it .. LOL. Now .. one of my best girlfriends said to me umm .. you have to do stand up which is where my date tonight is at a comedy club .. I know I could do at least 10 min on my dating experiences .. LOL! It's not open mike and it's also not appropriate .. dating gig while on a dating gig .. LOL!! It has been horribly funny and yet such a great learning experience I figure at some point my heart is probably going to get stepped on, for some odd reason I'm ok with that idea it keeps me grounded and makes me be more aware of what I'm putting in and what I'm actually getting out.
I'm learning to be chased instead of stopping I just kind of do a two step and turn left .. LOL. I don't make the rules I just try to figure out which ones apply .. lol.
Thanks for letting me share .. S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Hi Serenity Glad you were not hurt-- Driving in Texas sounds like doing so in NY.
i do understand the confusion re. dating and found alnon tools worked well even in the dating game. I kept the focus on myself , understood what I needed and wanted and how I intended to play the dating game. I was clear and up front and established my boundaries and principles on the first date so they understood who I was and could choose to return . Being Honest and true to myself worked
It was not as much fun :) but I stayed sane
Great share Serenity and great analogy......for the record, driving in KS is not much different! Unfortunately around here, since we have 4 seasons, the workers tend to re-arrange and re-route all highway traffic at the same time. Before I left town, a route I take typically 2 days in a row changed literally overnight, my exit was detoured and I had to go out of my way....just to get home!
I can 'see' how these changes beyond our control affect my path/journey. (((Hugs))) - no matter what happens, we must SAVE THE COFFEE!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
To give you an idea that every experience with me does not qualify as anything closely related to easy or smooth. BTW .. there was no coffee in hand so coffee was saved .. LOL!! I did get my coffee that is never an issue!!!
This guy and I laugh because every time we have met we wind up in the rain, and talking on the phone is another one where it's always raining and for some reason I'm always in my car while it's raining and we are talking. Plus I'm always lost because .. Google Maps hates me .. lol apparently it rains a LOT in Texas and no one knew it .. lol.
We were chatting while I was driving downtown and he's faster than Google Maps. He discovered he must have lots of patience with me and that it takes a lot to shake me up .. it's actually a good test of who he is as a person and how fast he is to anger and so on. I figure this is God's test for him .. lol. So I get lost as I was going just fine with Google Maps and I think he just wanted to get me there faster and wound up waiting longer. There are these skyways that go across the street so when I finally get there I see him and just to make sure I see him he did this move that I laughed about .. oh Lord he is fun. Number 1 rule of dating me .. you better have a wicked sense of humor and Number 2 .. you better have the patience of Job. Anyway, I get there and he guided me through the parking lot to an area with lots of parking and easy to get to the skyway. I got distracted for a min and we left he's asking me do I have everything I need. I totally laughed and said oh sure. It's now pouring rain and I'm thinking to myself well there goes the make-up and the hair .. oh well .. no umbrella . ain't nobody got time for that!! We make it to the comedy club and laughed at each other because we were hot wet messes. I realized as soon as I got there I emptied my pockets in my car and all of my id and tickets were in there .. thankfully the top guy checks the id's looks at us and looks at the rain he laughs and says I got this never mind .. LOL! Still leaves the issue of the tickets I left and THANKFULLY I had made reservations the next guy looks at me and starts laughing and says FINE .. come on through. At this point we were all laughing since my poor date and I looked like drowned rats and apparently no one had the heart to send us back out into the rain.
The rest of the evening went off without a hitch however I will never live down the fact I left every piece of id I owned in the car and brought my phone which I had shut off because I didn't want to be distracted by it.
The funniest part of the evening (outside the comedians) was when he looked at me and said .. holy cow you really DO get lost don't you!? I was like umm .. yes .. LOL! What a silly thing to lie or even exaggerate about when I say that Google Maps hates me I'm only relatively kidding. So now apparently every conversation is going to start off with is it raining where you are at since Texas is so big .. lol and are you lost or do you know exactly where you are .. lol. I told him you know it's ok for me to be lost because eventually I wind up where I need to be, it's not a big deal and I always have an adventure of sorts which is so much fun! He shook his head and said doesn't it ever bother you .. and honestly it doesn't it just is what it is and who knows what will happen. Now if I'm late that is another issue I do try not to do that to someone else because that is neither fun or charming. If it's just me and the kids it's an opportunity to find something new and maybe meet some new people or whatever. I used to get upset by it however it's just not worth it.
I have meet n greet as I'm calling them with a lovely man my age next week who we have been chatting for a while. He was teasing me because I have shared my starbucks and gamestop stories and he was trying to decide which venue well what most people don't know is because of the kids I'm a secret comic nerd (apparently so is he .. he's not so secret though) so as a joke I suggested a comic book store and boy did he jump on that .. lol. He's another one who matches my wit and has a wicked sense of humor. So I have been lucky in regards to meeting men and having some very good experiences.
Anyway, it really was a nice evening and now I'm very glad that I really slowed things down and I'm trying to relax and just have fun it has made a world of difference. I think the decision I'm going to have to make is really what do I want, so it's really a factor of time taking time.
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Have fun.....just have fun. That's my philosophy each and every day. A part of me feels as if I had a perpetual frown on my face for such a long, long while that I try to plan my outings with the intent of having fun. Life's meant to be enjoyed and not endured - enjoy your freedom and your outings - you deserve it!
Texas has had an extreme amount of rain this year. My bro lives close to Houston and he says it's crazy and beyond normal......hang in there - maybe buy a boat? Ha.ha.ha.ha.
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene