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Ive had a very hard day today friends.. The IRS wants a bunch of money from me and my ex that I dont have.I went on a interview where I liked the job offered,money is crummy and it takes over an hr to get there up some creaky stairs. My guy took us to our fave thrift store and had a loud angry fight with another guy on his cell phone. The guy is a real butthead, ive met him but my guy still helps him cause he was a pal of his late brother etc. I met a woman I knew 25 yrs ago[ 2 husbands and 1 guy friend ago[me] She is still with her hubby. Now my guy called wanting to bring me ice cream..but I dont want ice cream.. I just want the greedy stupid world to go away.....and leave me alone..im a good person and i get s-----------upon. Im trying to detach myself from my guy,s behaviors and let him deal with his own monkey and circus..we all are screwed up arent we????
((Alyce)) No you are not weak!!! You are a courageous ,intelligent, determined woman who is facing some major challenges at the moment and being very human.
The IRS will negotiate a reasonable repayment schedule with you or there are tax attorneys who can help with this tax situation. As for the job, trust HP remember you are powerless over you BF and get some rest.
I agree with Betty - you are strong, courageous and lovely just as you are....there are days and there are moments - try to use the tools of this program to realize what is and is not yours to deal with. My mind always wants to take a bad moment and magnify it - just the way I am wired. I've been working hard to see the real truth and know that HP has my back even when I wonder.
One moment at a time, one step at a time, one day at a time - we can celebrate how far we've come. It's a new day, and my hope for you is serenity. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Your not weak, you will take it one day at a time to become healthier every day. It has been 20 years I thought I was weak and now NOW....I'm scared but not weak.
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
No you aren't weak .. there are moments when enough is enough and we all need that moment of stepping back and taking a breath. Thank goodness I only have to take on my own little world one day at a time.
Everyday is a new day to make different choices and better yet .. I can start my day over no matter what time of the day it is.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
You're pretty kick arse awesome actually, Alyce. Want to know why? Because with all the things going on, you're still mindful of your goal. And that's a tough thing to do.
