The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Once I realized that I could not help my AS, I have been obsessed with helping myself.
I know in my heart that I am powerless over my sons addiction and my life has become unmanageable.
I am praying and talking to my HP multiple times daily and listening for any messages my HP puts in front of me.
Trying to keep my mind off of my AS...and on me and how I can change and feel somewhat normal again. This shook me to my core along with my family....
Checking here several times a day, attending meetings online, (no f2f meetings close to me during the time I am off work) reaching out to my family and friends. I am obsessed with Alanon and trying to find out everything I can. It has been a little over a week. Is this normal?
I remember feeling like this. I think it's pretty normal to immerse yourself in al-anon at the beginning, in fact it is encouraged! It balances out after a while; the tools of the program help you to make real and substantial changes and the rest of your life becomes less unmanagable. Don't fret
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
I started coming to this message board a couple weeks ago and attended my first Al-anon meeting last Saturday. I too am obsessed. I cant get enough. But even in the last few days I feel so much wiser. I don't feel so lost or overwhelmed. I am able to talk to my kids better about the disease and we are in the beginning stages of starting to do things we enjoy. When my AH does things that would normally send me over the edge, I can just ignore and move on. I feel a little bit more in control of my feelings everyday. I feel like it's somewhat replacing my obsession with worrying about my AH. It's good to know that it will balance out one day though-lol.