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Today is just a typical day. I seem to have trouble concentrating & focusing. I just realized not too long ago what concentrating means. I am not a dictionary & don't have a real command of the English language. My basic intelligence comes from my memory. I did well before as long as I could memorize things. Also, I have a hard time w/ my reading comprehension. Sometimes I can get the gist of something I read. Although when I read for pleasure all that doesn't matter. Does anyone out there feel less-than or feel like you are stupid sometimes? I generally don't feel stupid although I do self-talk & sometimes I call myself stupid. My AH calls me a dingbat. I guess that is supposed to be funny. He jokes w/ me a little too much that I sometimes believe him.
So, here I am sitting here trying to think of things to say. My mom is waiting to get the news about what they are doing about her skin cancer. And, my aunt is still in the hospital following her stroke. All this happened last week.
Still I am grateful. My life is still very simple. Sometimes I want to sleep in but it seems that I am getting more done. My AH usually sleeps in so I can get the things done I can't with him up & around. I am trying to downsize a little & get a handle on my hoarding. I am not sure if they really would come in & call my place a disaster area.
Sorry to hear about your mom and aunt. (((hugs))) Tough to go through the worry. Prayers for you and your family.
As far as the reading, I tend to get frustrated when reading directions of how to operate something. I often don't understand them as clearly as other people and usually end up asking for help. Honestly, I think this has more to do with my lack of patience. I don't want to re-read what I've just read to gain a better understanding. Why bother when I can just ask someone who easily comprehends instructions and can give me the answers immediately We are not "stupid." I think some people read and process certain things well that we don't and we read and process other things well that they don't.
No name calling Hoot... I mean it. If your ah calls you that name again, you may have to buy his favorite snack food and eat it in front of him without sharing any of it with him. After all these years, you know better than to listen to that kind of talk from him. ((((hugs)))) TT
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We are not "stupid." I think some people read and process certain things well that we don't and we read and process other things well that they don't.