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It is been a long time since I have been on this site. I have still been working on myself during this time as well as the 12 steps. I've been daily trying to detach myself from my alcoholic spouse and work on my issues. I have to say that I have made quite a bit of progress. Although the recovery has been slow for me, I have felt stronger than I have felt in a very long time. A week ago I came out to Colorado to help in my recovery. This was a big step because my alcoholic spouse's health has been quickly deteriorating as her alcoholism has consumed her physically as well as mentally. At first I was afraid to come out here because her health is so advanced. But I knew that I needed to come out here for myself and I needed this recovery time. I feel most connected to my higher power through nature so this was the obvious choice for me. Because taking that step of coming out here to Colorado, I have seen a lot of the stuff that I've been holding onto for years slowly melt away. It's been a lot of tears and a lot of therapeutic healing for me out here. I feel closer to my higher power than I've been in a very long time.
The miracles just keep happening as I'm still recovering. Now A new Miracle has been brought up to me. My spouse admitted to me that she is an alcoholic and that she has quit drinking. Her withdrawal symptoms are pretty severe but she has been staying with a friend of ours who is a medical nurse. So I worry about her but I know she is taking the right step. Her outlook is very positive and to me this is huge. I never thought that she would admit to her problem until she was on her deathbed. So as we always say in al--anon-there's always hope. I'm living proof of that. Al-anon has saved my life, and I believe it has also saved the life of my spouse. Thank you so much for all of your support. I will definitely need it as I continue on this new chapter of my life and my spouse's life, as I am on unchartered territory!
Gabigail
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Butterflies can't see their wings. They can't see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. People are like that as well. Anonymous
Awesome Gabi....AWESOME!! You speak of miracles as I also have receive them...God will do for us what we cannot do for ourselves....YAY...Mahalo Akua...Thank You God. (((((hugs)))))
So good to hear from you, and yay, what great news!
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
(((Gabigail))) - great to see you! Thank you for stopping by and sharing the miracles in your recovery! God is good and you appear to be doing great with your self-care. You and your spouse are both in my thoughts and prayers!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene