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I'm beating myself up with ..not being or going to church,my church family has tried and tried to get me to attend church with no avail,I'm feeling like I'm just not ready,why ,I don't know really myself,recovery right now ,my step program is most important to me and priority for most part and it's working on me,so I'm got weird feelings about going to church right now ,haven't been in a year,I don't know what my problem is....,,,,much needed vent on this subject that's been ailing me for quite sometime now like a monkey on my back keeping me from it,maybe it's I'm so shameful ,I know church is for sinners,maybe it's I don't want to make a change right now and I can't see myself as a Christian should be .all I do know is this is where I belong for now to get well myself.with nothing getting in my way of this.....hugs lu
Your church family is asking you to come? Maybe they see you, just as God sees you...as a sinner, just like them, and a child of God. To me, the church is an extension of my family, and extension I can't live without. I stayed away for a little while, after my Dad died, and I got really sick. I was battling with God, because I didn't understand why all of these bad things were happening to me. I don't have the big picture. Only He does. I know that He can use all of us, for His will, if we allow Him to. I'm sure you will know when, and if, the time is right for you to return. (((BMU)))
-- Edited by sweetness34 on Tuesday 3rd of May 2016 12:33:12 PM
Wow this is a God thingy!!! Mahalo Akua...Thank you God. The religion I was thrusted into at birth and then convinced to stay in for decades was not my choice while Al-Anon with it's steps, traditions, slogans, fellowship, literature, recovery and GOD of my own understanding was. I found myself attending church/masses and then crying after I left and questioned what was happening. I inventoried what was happening and came to the understanding that I was in a "talk" program in church and in a "walk" program in Al-Anon. I was getting more spiritual awareness and experience from working the program and not from my church. I stopped attending that and continued to attend to this. So much of the alcoholism in my life came the religion I participated in...so much. My first addict was a religious fan-addict and her church broken up my family while my church had no solutions to ceasing the pain. Go figure. ((((hugs))))
LU I found that I could return to church as long as i permitted myself to "Take what I liked and leave the rest" That worked for me. Keep an open mind on the subject , stop beating yourself up and pray about this
Thanks for such great esh,I will defiantly pray about it and keep praying ,and Jerry I can to relate I've found that I'm getting allot from here that reaches down deep into my childhood where all the pain began that my church although I love my church,but there still this that I'm not able to get this shareing,reaching out to each other and being able to talk about it and get understanding from ppl just like us here in alanon.i should be able to do both really church and this my church is a very doing church with things going on and things for members to and needs to be doing,I guess I'm just not ready for all that right now what's most important today right now is my recovery getting better ,where I'll feel more freer and less stressed ,less anxiety ,and be able to run and go forward then I'll be ready to tackle whomever and whatever nothing holding me back ,I'm about to be on step 3 ,yeeeeha,,I'm ready .hugs.....lu
