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Well, a huge weight has been lifted today. Today i received some official mail and found myself immediately doing what I imagine a normal person would do. I picked up my phone and called to sort things out. Its a child support matter. I had to call my country of origin, and honestly even hearing the kiwi accent makes me shaky, because they've assessed it wrong. The child support amount that is not the accent.lol. anyway it was rough at first but by the end it was ok. I found out what I need to do, and then called the other agency here in australia and they were even easier. So much easier. I love this country. How many kids do you have, what's your income and when would you like to pay. Simple. And the amount is ridiculously managable. I decided to pay extra on top because I hate debt and being my own new best friend --thank you missmelly-- well, it felt right. Now I hope that in nz they do right by me and fix the outstanding amount. It would be nice. It would be sooo nice! It was also nice because the person in nz I spoke to apologised to me for what happened with my kids. That was unexpected. It was kind. It made me feel a bit less panicked. Like I'm safe. I hope my boys are ok. They are 14 and 12 and the last conversation we ever had was about angels.....do you beleive in angels my baby? Yes mum, I can see it, right before he fell asleep for the last time in my arms. Along with the sadness there is a great faith that god always has a plan and the plan is bigger than the characters. Thank you all for your prayers and support, I feel really grateful a d releived.
((A41)) Thank you for the inspiring recovery message. I appreciate your sharing your cherished moments with your son, as it enabled me to reflect on a similar beautiful spiritual experiences that I hold close to my heart. Love how you "Took the actions" and the results were so positive. I am happy that we are sharing the journey.
Lovely share - lovely action = results that are workable. I do not know why my first reaction when I get 'formal mail' is to panic and feel mini fear, but it does happen. That is exactly why for me I have to start my day the program way....it helps me return to center when my emotions or mind want to go left or right!
Yay for you for taking the necessary action to resolve the issue. Thanks for sharing with us!! Job ... Well ... Done!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I think that's a whole of of progress, go you. I love how the scary stuff gets easier to tackle and we move from "thinking about it" to 'actually doing it". Like the little engine that could, and did. I suspect you're just getting started.
Go you good thing
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
Thank you for sharing, I hope that the boys are ok. and pray for you and them. Off topic, I also pray for my girls 12 and 15 that they do not have the same issue that you have with your boys
