The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am starting to shake whatever it is that is bothering me. I am not my thoughts. Sometimes I feel disconnected. But I am doing the action steps to make the most of what I have. What I have a freedom that I found in Al anon. It is about time I let the Program work. It works if you work it. I guess I should follow my own advice & keep coming back, share the message & let God do the rest!
I am not a newcomer. But I do have moments when I feel that way. I have mentioned this before. I don't want to be revered or treated like I am special. I just want people to know that even old timers mess up once in awhile. We are not saints! I guess that I am finally catching up to where I think I need to be. I am not all there. It is obvious that I have a long way to go but the program teaches us that we are all a work in progress. I hope I am not contradicting myself. I just want to continue showing the program in action.
Thanks for letting me share & for giving me an open forum to let you all know where I am coming from.
You are all so important to me.
Keep coming back & sharing your Experience, Strength & HOPE!
I too have those Very Moments, where My Program & all my Hard work Seems Nil... That's what I Love about this Program, it allows us to Dust off and Start again, I have Moments where I Think to myself "Have you Learned Anything!" and then I'm Reminded that when I'm Being Critical of myself, that's part of my Ism... and its time to Get Dirty again & Step up My HP Time :)...
Very Glad you Popped in, I Need you just as Much... Be Gentle on you, we are Progress Not Perfection and that's what makes us Shine...
((Kathleeen)) the Courage to Change reading for today states exacty what you have said. It notes that no matter how long we are in program, we will still have problems that we need to deal with and issues that make us cry, and challenge us. That is why it is so important ot continue working it, even if we are not living with an alcoholic.
I am glad tha you are here and sharing the journey.
(((Kathleen))) - waiving @ ya from my part of the world. Your share and your presence is a gift to me - not because you are always sunshine and lovely but because you are honest and you are real. I love that when we are discontent or struggling, we have each other to share with. Your willingness to be brutally honest inspires me. I loved today's reading that Betty refers to...
When I arrived, I had 3 active qualifiers in my home. I seriously was crazy and felt out-numbered and defeated. My boys have moved out and moved on, and relationships are tender/broken. However, working this program and having hope that progress is all that matters gives me hope for myself, them and what HP will bring. I still get sad and I still wish at times for different/better. But then my sponsor reminds me that when I think that way, I've taken my will back and that I really need to trust the process and my HP.
So grateful you are part of our family! Sending prayers and hugs your way!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
