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Yesterday was another nightmare, moving my daughter to her new home. We did it however and its now done. She is 22 years old in April and needs to be on her own. I am now at the house with the ABF-sober for 5 days now. He is determined as ever to stay sober this time around. I believe he hit his bottom this time. My daughter we were so focused on is now out of the house and its just him and I. If things become unbearable then I too will move out. He knows this and I believe he is determined to stay sober. I can only take things one day at a time. We are planning to attend church this Sunday and their is service this Friday night. We have plans to attend. We have been reading the bible again and we said a prayer for my daughter, sister and her father and my nephew Dusty. It has been a circus of madness around here. We ask for forgiveness for our behaviors. Yes, there was a lot of reacting and anger here but now, its so quite and sane. I am able to focus on myself at last and do what I need for me. Not having my daughter here and focused on her lack of motivation, laziness, anger outbursts, medical issue feel like a relief. I see how hard I had been trying to help her and trying to keep sanity in the home. Its no wonder I felt I would loose my mind. I have also decided, no more family living with me or staying at my home. I have had enough of their drama too. I have also decided to not have contact with my extended family any further, as that causes me to want to fix them and help them. I keep saying, they are over 21 years old, they can figure things out on their own, I had to. I left home at 15 years old and been on my own since. I am setting strong boundaries for myself. I have to not listen to other people BS and sad time stories as I want to help! I have had enough of HELPING. I need to help myself. I feel I can move forward with my life now. I feel at last I can focus on me! What I want, need and hope for. Its been a nightmare, but I did it to myself by wanting to HELP people that do not want to help themselves. I need to start on working on me and creating new friends, program friends and really working on my recovery! I am done with trying to save everyone but myself! Thanks for listening!
One time, I had lost contact with my family for 5 years, it was a relief. I had time to focus on me and what I had to do for me. I have to go back to that! Mind my own business!
