I entertain myself I swear and seriously there is a reason I'm not allowed out without a chaperone.  Even the people at my past work know the story in terms of me keeping it real .. LOL. 

So this past week well since my assignment ended, I have been spending a lot of girl time with girlfriends in the area and it's been a good thing.  Being able to relax, laugh and offer support for things they are going through it helps me not wallow in self pity .. HA HA .. a luxury I just don't have .. self pity that is. 

This whole adulting thing gets a little tiresome at times.  I'm grateful for the people in my life who remind me what I'm more than just the adult 100% of the time. 

Wednesday afternoon I spent time with one girlfriend and we laughed, laughed until we cried and just solved all of the world problems with relationships which I did tell her I'm so not an expert on how to have a relationship .. I sure can tell you what not to do .. lol.  Relationship advice or suggestions are just outside of my hula hoop.  It was just nice to have some normalcy, I'm not alone in the dating world at 40 something and I'm not weird for wanting what I want. 

Yesterday another girlfriend stopped and picked me up, we went and ran an errand and stopped off at a sports bar that had a great venue in terms of an outdoor patio with a fireplace.  It was awesome.  So we talked laughed, laughed until we cried and solved all of the world problems of relationships.  A nice looking man came by and was chatting us up .. he acted interested and turns out he's married .. move along nothing to see here .. well as she talked about her job and we just chatted about where we were from and so on .. he just randomly asked if we were together and I thought .. seriously?  Not that there is anything wrong with that, it may explain why I'm not approached by men, I might be giving off the I'm a very strong independent woman and I don't like men vibe .. oi.  Poor guy talk about awkward for him.  We both looked at him as if to say seriously?  And the funniest thing was the silence after .. it was a conversation killer now I have all kinds of snappy come backs now so I'm fully loaded if that happens again I was just so shocked.  His comment was we looked very comfortable together and I'm thinking .. I thought that was what friends did?  Maybe I'm goofy that way .. I think of my good women friends as a sisterhood so therefore why would I be anything else EXCEPT relaxed and engaged in conversation?  So I gave him a funny look and said .. well isn't that what friends do create a safe environment to be themselves?  He was back peddling at this point and said well ya you know I like to go out and relax with my friends and I laughed and said and people think your gay?  LOL?  I mean seriously who says that kind of thing like that.  (my thought not my response). 

It was funny and I got a kick out of it because I thought wow .. do we really still exist in a place that if two attractive women are together and not engaging men, and they are having a good time in each others company it is an automatic go there I don't think I have ever thought that about seeing two guys together in my lifetime. 

My daughter put it in perspective for me she says mom .. I'm just saying you aren't best friends until people think you are lesbians.  So you have crossed the line into best friends.  I shared that nugget of a teenager perspective of the situation and we laughed for a long time over that one.  Now it's all I can do not to make snarky comments about it on FB .. LOL .. it is what it is and it still made me laugh.

So tonight I'm going out with a gaggle of ladies and I only know one of them so that means I will be in rare form just because I will be nervous.  Interestingly enough I am pretty shy and one of the ways I compensate is to force myself to be engaging. 

We should have a blast and I look forward to it.  I do wonder if someone will make a comment about a group of women oh lordy are they gay?  I'm prepared .. LOL!

Hugs S :)