I have been working really hard on staying focused on myself and reading a lot of al-anon literature, AA big book and just trying to let go. I got the best news today from my ABF, he is working this weekend! I am so, so happy! I am so fed up with this drinking and talking to himself and being drunk 24 hours a day and not being present! Last weekend was hell for me, Thursday and Friday until Sunday. On Saturday he put the lock on the door to the basement, in a few hours of sober moments. I left him upstairs in the house and he drank and drank and talk to himself non stop and stumbled around the house till Monday morning around 4:30 am. He was beyond pathetic in his drunken state. I was disgusted! In the basement, I had my suite all set up nice and cozy and all I heard was him stumbling around and I did not have to hear him talking to himself! It was a relief from heaven! I even had a good sleep in the bedroom in the basement! The emotional hell from Thursday to Monday took a toil on me so bad. (He drove the 5 hour back to work Monday night and was talking suicide and having a self pity party), and I said thank you god, I am not with him. I was embracing myself for another 4 days of hell again, he would be drunk and drinking non stop, talking to himself, having pity party, arguing with me, calling me down, and the insane list goes on, and now I have a break! I am so, so relieved! God is good! Is he working really? I do not care. He says he has someone else he has been in contact with in the next province and has been in contact with her for 4 years and had said he would tell me he is going to work on the weekend and see her instead! I do not care what he does. Just stay the hell away from me! I do not want to be around the insanity of his drunkenness anymore! I feel such relief, I can have peace! Thank you god your so good! Your protecting me from his insanity! I am so grateful! Just wanted to share my happiness!