He cooked a nice breakfast and got his things together and loaded in his car,said his goodbyes ,bittersweet I guess is how I see it,it is hard for me to except him for who he is what he has become he was doing so good staying sober 2 years ago with no recovery program it's like he went into a tail spin and down he went ,and he just haven't got his self back,to broken down to hold a real job down or any job,and going to prison in few months for 4 or 5 yrs day for day,it's his mess,I know just heart breaking,sad situation he has gotten himself In,do I want to keep enabling him? No absolutely not,this is where I let go and let my hp take the wheel cause I didn't cause it ,or can I change it  or can I cure him from this monster desease that's taken his whole body over completely,my sister still here she not doing good at all I'm afraid for her she having loss of memory and talking out loud and nobodys there ,she a recluse here,not very functional as she should be,something the matter and I know her problem to. Has a lot to do with her years of drug abuse .sad,I thank all of you here that's been here for me ,I've been able to go about my business stayed busy all day taking care of my home and paying bills,and on my way back home I used several alanon tools over and over,,,,easy does it , is one Ive used lots of times,and give it over to my hp,things will unfold as they are suppose to stay out of the way,let go and let God ,I think I'll let him,,,lists goes on .......thanks for listening to me and putting up with me ,I  saw where I've wigged out all over this board I guess,but it did get better for me,today I've taken care of me by taking it slow and useing alanon tools,love it......hugs lu