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Which is causing me BIG issues as far as acting out. I have actually been REALLY good considering what has been going on.
I am currently dealing with a work situation that involves someone I really like as a person however as a co-worker they are completely toxic. I don't use that term lightly. This week alone she has tried to pump me for information about a situation I don't even want to know about and I was being polite when she was TEXTING me at work about it. She then went on to make rude comments about our boss via text as well. I did not respond to the rude comments and did respond to the other one. To give you an idea of how badly she wanted me to respond she then proceeded to verbally ask me why I didn't respond to her "other text" to which my response was non-descript and I redirected to work. I did pull my boss aside and said look .. you tell her whatever YOU want to tell her I'm telling you what you and I discuss is strictly between us. I didn't say this however my position requires a high level of confidentiality because some of the information is very sensitive personnel wise and financially. Not everyone needs to know kind of thing. What pushed me over the edge this past weekend was the fact this other woman was literally forwarding a text from a co-worker and I was like WTH are you doing, meaning HER forwarding this text and I was shocked as well. It had to do with her blowing up over the weekend and a confrontation between her and our boss. Which honestly was NOT that big of a deal, everyone is tired, stressed and so on. Her acting out is only stirring the pot and she has said some very outrageous things in the past. I have made it EXTREMELY clear not only have I verbalized my stance on the "drama", I am choosing not to respond now. Some people need more of a two by four to get it. Honestly, this is not a bad job the pay is very decent and I enjoy the work when I'm not dealing with the constant chaos. I had to laugh though because this gal got a rude awakening from me when her texts were not working and she verbally came to me whispering about something. I firmly snapped and cut her off by responding I did not know and I did not want to know. STOP! Well it was an awkward moment because my bosses door which is adjoining opened up and my boss, as well as someone else came out in the middle of my statement and her leaning over me. So this gal immediately states well I don't want to know either. In a huff of course, I mean seriously .. get a flipping clue, I just want to come in and do my work. Everyone is uptight as it is, .. UGH! I did not explain to my boss about the texting, I DID tell her that the situation we are trying to put to bed, this gal approached me twice and now she's got the details directly from my boss. I question what will and will not stay with this other gal as I have direct experience in the meddling that is happening at the moment. There are multiple situations in this past week that have been horribly frustrating and I'm just trying to keep my side of the street clean, it pisses me off when someone throws their trash in my street. Leave that stuff on YOUR side .. LOL!
Add to the stress I have not received my banking card and I'm headed into the weekend. I can't access my account via the internet. I'm FULLY not a happy kid. I have money in my account with no way to access it. UGH! So I am REALLY hoping that tomorrow things get straightened out because it will be the weekend yet again and I REALLY have to have access to this money.
Did I mention I'm terribly hormonal at the moment? The fact I have not blazed this woman with both barrels at the moment speaks VOLUMES about my own program and understanding my own limits. I did go have a lovely lunch with my old boss today I miss her. I do really love my new boss. That's the other thing I"m looking at the new one going please believe me this is so NOT the norm around here I am blaming all of the changes and fear that are all running around and all of this misc garbage is just misc garbage. These people are such fantastic people I'm so horribly confused.
Anyway, sigh thanks for letting me vent and tomorrow is another day .. I would just like to get my money .. I want to work in a non drama filled office .. and I am really trying not to participate in the drama, the old me would have jumped in with both feet. The new me is looking at the cost of it all ... it's just not worth it. Oi! LOL!
Hugs S :)
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Hi Serenity I do hear you I do know a "Drama filled office". I know when my Company was at the worst by laying off people,closing departments, moving office space, the gossip and rumor mill was non stop and destructive to my ability to do my job. I finally told everyone I did not want to hear any sgossip , or tales or rumors any longer. they could talk among themselves but I was not to be included. It worked!!! If anyone forgot, I reminded them politely It made my work day more pleasant. You are on the right path. Prayers that your money becomes free soon
(((Serenity))) - so sorry.....office drama is the worst because it's far more difficult to 'walk away' when you are trying to work/get work done.
I was less 'nice' when I was still working in the professional world. I would be like Betty, but I straight up said, "I don't do drama, I don't want drama and I've got too much work to do. Please exclude me from the drama." I would remind folks too if they tried to engage me.
I'm still that way, and enjoy setting that boundary as gossip does nothing but cause issues, and those of us here need less issues not more issues.
Good news - tomorrow is Friday - your last day for a few! Sorry about your banking issues - praying they get resolved quickly.
You are right that some folks need a 'two-by-four' to get it. These are the ones I had to be perfectly direct with as professional as possible. They don't take hints, and if they enjoy gossip, they usually don't get it the first time.
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This has been a good lesson in self awareness for me and I have noticed some things I did not like about myself in my own behavior so progress not perfection. I am ok with where I'm at and that's good. I think my co-worker has gotten the hint. So I'm grateful the phone calls, texting and whispering have stopped. It's weird because I'm in this mode to prove I'm right and I'm having a conversation with myself of STOP lol! I'm really not sure what to do with that one. So I'm trying to breathe and relax. My banking got resolved I'm a little put out that I didn't have to wait for access to my money the whole week. That would have saved me a great deal of trouble. Anyway it's fine I'm good and now I chose something new. Hugs s ;)
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"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
It sounds like you did a good job using boundaries with this person in your workplace. I also like the way you escalated it without taking it directly to your boss. When you verbally pushed back when she came to your desk and it drew attention from supervision that let your coworker know that you mean "business." From my experience, people like this want people who will participate with them. I'm betting she'll move on to someone who will. Glad you're enjoying your new job and that you have a good boss - great reasons to safeguard this new opportunity. Glad the bank issue got resolved too. (((hugs)) TT
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I think it is great that you refused to be a part of the drama. I'm sure that is be hard to deal with at work all of the time - when I taught, the woman were non-stop drama! I was so glad to get out of there...anyway I hope you get your bank card soon :) and way to go on handling things so well!
