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I found a lawyer for the house. I will be making an appointment next week to deal with the house. I will be doing what I can to protect me right now. I will be nice to BF, kind, but I will no longer be there for him anymore. Like I was told, let lawyer know, he had given you a lifestyle and money, which he deposits into my band account to pay the bills and you want that lifestyle maintained. We have lived together for a year now and we are considered common law. He knew I was disabled from work when he moved me and my daughter in and that she is disabled too. I have to start really thinking about me and protect me right now. What is my part, my part has been helping him, encouraging him, being his sounding board, being his financial cushion between jobs, (I have kept documents off all the money I gave him), and I will be asking for it back, and being there, committed to the relationship and just being really kind to him. I have see that he has used my kindness to his advantage and used me like a rag, and now that he is working again, he no longer needs me. I am seeing when he needs something, he is supper nice to me and says, love, but when he gets what he needs, he no longer cares and is an a***le toward me. I am so, so angry and I see that I deserve much better than this empty relationship. Just wait till I get over my sickness and I get back to work and I will show him, he can kiss my a***. I have decided that I will no longer be here for him at his beck and call. I will go out and start dating and checking out dating sites and act like I am completely single. He will be in for a shock when I have met someone else that will treat me like a queen and I am no longer there for him. I will show him what happiness is, and he sees that I have a back bone, and he can no longer use me and that I have a lawyer for the house. He will be in for a shock of his life but I do not care. This lawyer is very good as well. I am going to start protecting myself in every way that I can. I will get my money back from him what I have given him so far, to assist him with things, and start saying NO,NO, NO!!! I can be selfish too, just watch me. I am so, so angry! But anger is good, it helps me get over being his victim and have a back bone that is hard as rock...he is in for a ***n shock of his life. I prayed today and ask god to help me, I just can not deal with this pain anymore. I am hurting! Thanks for listening!
-- Edited by hotrod on Saturday 9th of January 2016 06:27:39 PM
The best way to stop being a doormat is to get up off the floor. There is a difference in mentality from being a victim to being victimized, being a victim is a helpless position being victimized is a factual based situation.
Try and just keep the focus on you and decide once you have emotionally settled what mountain you are willing to die on is the phrase I used, once I did that the rest became very easy.
Hugs S :)
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