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I do have many atutile problems and bad behavior patterns left without any trust after several relationship breakups,I know it's got to be me not all them,I love the man I'm with now but he has his issues ,but my idea of a relationship should be ,isn't what I get I'm thinking a knight in shineing armor,ha,lol, I'm not perfect Im haveing such a hard time working on me cause I can't take the focus off of him ,lol,I know I drive him and my sister crazy,but when he is gone my sister has ways of putting droughts into my head about him,I already fought him and this relationship,I'm the jealous type givein me ample reason to be jealous but also it never fails when I read his texts there she is,who she is I dunno he gets soo upset with me for bringing up things concerning another woman cause I have t the facts at all just his texts which sounds like times there's cheating going on.may not be and he is agin another drug addict caught him running a needle yesterday walked in on him he tried to lie about it and say I didn't see nothing,I kept my kook and walked away and just asked him to plz be clean and steril with it,lol am I going crazy by allowing this in my home or is it that I know I have to have my cigs and such is my bad habit but his habit is more severe that he seemed to be ashamed of it ,he won't hard.y talk about it to me I guess something he is not proud of I try to block it completely out of my brain which I can block it but it comes back.we are in our 50s and he been running drugs all his life he says off and on,but still a way better man seems to be than most will do anything for me and a harder worker with many skills,and very smart all his good way out weighs his bad habit I don't know what to do can't walk away from him but I don't know how to get him to open up to me about it or talk to me concerning it........hugs....looking up ,I think I just need to pack up and move far far away.and start all over .never have I done that but been popping in my mind for weeks now,all these guys I've went with here I've about known all my life or at some point .way back to my partying days.maybe that's my answer is to move away,but where to.
(((looking up))) Please remember that we are powerless over people, places and things, Directing our focus on to others is easier but a complete waste of time
The Courage to Change reading for today reminds us of the Slogan"Let it begin with me" . It points out that this is an important reminder to focus on changing ourselves and take the focus off fixing others.
Alanon tools of, staying in gin the moment and in the day, stopping gossiping, judging and critiquing others is a first huge step in the process.
It is also important to make gratitude lists and asset lists and to do alanon readings daily We must change ourselves in order for our lives to improve.
Also establishing boundaries in your home is essential. No alcohol, or drug use could be one.
You can decide what else is important to you
