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Introduction in Full


Hello Everyone

Thank you for having me on this site. I have posted once before and you were all so helpful. But i never really went into what my life is like now. If you don't mind hearing me, i really need to talk to someone. I moved away from an abusive marriage in 2007. Bought some land, as i was a realtor back then, and saved to move. For i had went into business with my husband and lost my own self. He was boss.I eventually got a job at a couple of places including my real estate job and bought a place for me and my daughter. My oldest had already married and moved.  Since then, we have remarried, after i divorced him. We kept our own places, which seemed to work for a while. Then i built a home, as i lived iin a very old single wide mobile home that i had remodeled, i wanted to feel safer, much less no one has ever wanted to build one with me. He never quit his  drinking and as i was building, i stayed with him for 3 months. He got abusive again one night. i finally got my house built and move into it. He does help me with the insurance that he has which i have where i work and helps me with groceries, but every time i say something he does not like, he gets into his truck and goes home. At first i thought "okay this will work". Then he started leaving on Christmas Eve, New years Eve, etc. Hurts alot. It is something so simple like disagreening on supper, etc. I think i have fell out of love, but cannot bring myself to be alone again in my life. I've been married several times. And i wanted all of them to work. i wamted this to work. Its like he punishes me for saying anything he does not like to hear. He still drinks hard liquor and i do drink beer. He thinks i should not even drink beer, but will not quit what he does or even try to think about moving in together again. This is not like it should be to me and i'm so unsettled. I love my small house i built, but finding myself not even wanting him to come here anymore. He does not participate in any get togethers with my family ( always has to work), but i participate in his family get togethers. I know i need alot help. I know i need to let him go. Why can't i? I don't understand what i'm doing. Please advise me. Thank you in advance.



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(((Trisha)) Please search out alanon face to face meetings and attend You will be filled with great tools to live by

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THE HIGHEST FORM OF WISDOM IS KINDNESS

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Trisha, it is time that you reach out to Al-anon.  You will

learn and acquire some great tools, slogans and prayers.

Working the 12-steps will help you answer all those 

questions you have.  You are not alone, we all have

experienced some or all of what you are going through.

 



-- Edited by Debb on Thursday 24th of September 2015 07:31:56 PM

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Thank you so much for listening to my post. Not many F2F meetings here. I know i need them. He makes me feel like it's all my fault. My daughters wonder why i am with him still. He is very nice to them, but i think i've lost my love from so much past disappointments. Last time we had an argument, he was going to go fishing with me. I went to his house for the event. Thats always what brought us together. We don't do that anymore. He got really drunk and told me that if i wanted to do what my father did (if you ready my post earlier),there were plenty of loaded weapons in the house. Of course he was drunk and apolozied for saying it the next day. He left and i did too. He was asleep at my house when i got home. How can i still see a man who said that to me? Please someone tell me.

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Trisha, Al-anon teaches us to detach with love and empathy.
In order for you to be able to move forward, you will have to
look at yourself and detach from your AH. This link will
help you locate a meeting near you.
www.al-anon.alateen.org/local-meetings
MIP also has 2 meeting per day here on line and you
can also work the steps here on this board as well.
You have to take the first step yourself. {{HUGS}}

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Thank you Debb, i will visit the site you suggested and start this first step now. Thank you for listening to all.

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Hi TrishaG,

Reading over what you have shared, my heart goes out to you for the feelings you are experiencing. I truly believe that taking a walk on the AlAnon path with F2F meetings, as those before me have also suggested, is something that can bring you the clarity you seek. Only you know all the details and motivations in your life, so no one else can give you those answers. If they could, you would still need to determine what you are going to do about the reality of your situation.

Before I tried AlAnon, I was confused, sad, fearful, and desperate. Attending meetings got me started on a path that has led me to real peace. You don't need many meetings, one will do wonders for you if you keep an open mind and keep going back. That is something that is within your control, something that worked for me and so many others when faced with desperate times. Please give it a try...

Thank you for your courage in sharing, we're all pulling for you

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"...when we try to control others, we lose the ability to manage our own lives."  - Paths to Recovery 



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I thank you for the welcome. I am so glad i came here. I have needed help with this for a long time.



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There are on line meetings here at MIP twice daily where you can participate and read the shares of our members.  Getting a daily dose of Al-Anon will help you tremendously.  Face to face meetings saved my life and maybe you'll find some in your area.  It is important to read your shares here as if you were someone else or even one of us so that you can get a clearer picture of yourself and your condition.  I was led to that idea in Al-Anon and it helped me tremendously to see "my part" in "my problem".    You have skills and tools you don't know about yet.  Come participate with us.   ((((hugs)))) smile



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