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My AH has been sober for what is coming up on 4 months. He is starting to slack on meetings and hasn't gone to one in three weeks. Asked him about if he was going tonight after work but he said he probably wouldn't because he may have to work late. I just have to remind myself to let go and let god and that his higher power is working with him. I just have so much added anxiety today though. Thank goodness there is a face-to-face meeting this afternoon. Just so scared that he will relapse but I guess I can't predict the future.
(((Jazzie))) Living in the moment and trusting HP, I was able to enjoy the sober days and trust that HP would give me the courage,serenity and wisdom to live life on life's terms whatever went on. It works. Glad you have a meeting to attend.
Hi, Jazzie,
I remember feeling those very things in the situation you describe: increased anxiety, fear, helplessness...It is interesting as I look back on it that the times I knew the most about my qualifier's program, my anxiety and insanity was at it's worst. The less I knew about her program and the more focused I became on myself, the more serenity I found.
Keep up the good work, we are all works in progress and Letting Go, Letting God doesn't happen overnight. Using the slogans, readings, and meetings of the program daily helped me immensely, they will work for you, too. Glad you are making time for a F2F, hang in there
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Paul
"...when we try to control others, we lose the ability to manage our own lives." - Paths to Recovery
(((Jazzie))) - I too am glad you've got a meeting to attend! Do the best you can to take care of you today and try not to project what may/may not be.
I agree with Betty - trust your HP to get you through anything you encounter and it will be OK...
Know that we're here with you!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I can totally understand Jazzie, but I sense you already know what you must do. I too am glad you have a f2f meeting to go to! It is so hard to "Mind Our Own Business", but with practice I found that I felt so much better when I did, because I truly am not responsible for this adult, only he is responsible for himself. {{HUGS}}
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"Forgiveness doesn't excuse bad behavior, but it
does prevent bad behavior from destroying your heart". ~ unknown
