My finals were yesterday,I gave my speech and my instructor said it was amazing,the best she had ever heard from a student!She gave me an A plus.I felt amazing, as if I had uncovered some secret desire that has been hidden in my heart.When I was a little girl I spent a lot of time in my room reading,writing and doing artwork,I loved it.I have found something that I am passionate about,now I want  to develop my skills into more  creative writing.Putting my thoughts and feelings on paper gives me such a feeling of meaning and purpose.I believe I have a lot of stories inside of my head but I have never paid attention to them,I have been terribly distracted by this life of mine.On the other hand,I had a test in another class that I completely forgot about,with the stress of the funeral it escaped my mind.I didn't do well on it at all.It was a big test and my mind went blank.My instructor said I could retake it Thursday if I wanted.Last night I looked at my notes and felt overwhelmed, and my brain went all mushy.I don't even know if I can retain the information right now.I have done well with everything else in the class and I am thinking about just letting it go as long as I pass.I saw my therapist yesterday,she has been with me through this whole ordeal,she even cried with me.I love her.