Whenever there is change I get a bit stressed. My oldest is starting her high school senior year tomorrow and my baby is starting second grade, I am starting my last semester of nursing school which will be the hardest and longest semester yet. I know to take this one day at a time and no matter what I will be okay. With that being said even with being an al-anoner this long, I still can't wait to be back into some sort of routine switching from Summer to Fall schedules. Work has been brutal lately and running short staffed really stinks when taking care of people to the best of my ability is what I love to do, but hard to do when stretched t the max. I am not in a tizzy or freaking out which I would have been in the past just annoyed with not much filter going on. I know I need to buckle down and give myself some care and time before diving back into the next thing coming and tomorrow after getting my girls off to school I am going to take the morning to do just that. I need some me time, self care and maybe a nice long walk with the pooch.

My boyfriend noticed this weekend I was uptight and argumentative with him which is not my per usual and I didn't get enough sleep with working a 12 hour shift, but I did the best I could and we laughed about it today over the phone. My exAH has been dating my old friend in the small town I left after our divorce and although it shouldn't bother me, he always asked me after we split to not date any of his close friends and that is exactly what he is now doing. I am not jealous and actually want him happy, I know too much and know they both like to drink and go out to bars and well she is still married, but I don't care about any of that, I hate that he asked me not to do something that he is doing. I know better to have any expectations of him, because it's not the first time he set up a double standard, but none the less I am left feeling annoyed by it. It is a small town and not many women are in his age group so I do understand it that way. That is one of the reasons I left it was way too small for us both to live in. I don't regret leaving and am doing better then ever since I left, my girls are healthy and thriving and I can so breath without living near the A's in my life. I talk to my sponsor when I need to, but still miss my beloved first sponsor that passed and wish I could call her tonight. Thanks for listening. Sending you all love and support on your journey's!