Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene

SerenityRUS · ~*Service Worker*~

Very Quick Update ..

Iamhere · ~*Service Worker*~

Keep on keeping on Serenity - we have Sprouts here also - I do like them! They got reasonable produce most days.....that's about all I get from there!

Keep working it girl - great share and love how you trust HP!

Debb · ~*Service Worker*~

So encouraging Serenity, reading your progress and yes trusting your HP. {{HUGS}}

pinkchip · ~*Service Worker*~

I am admiring your faith to just pick up and move and start a new life. It's like you are offering yourself up to your HP to mold you and your entire life as meant. It reminds me of the 3rd step prayer (which is also the prayer of St. Francis):

The Third Step Prayer

from page 63 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous

God, I offer myself to Thee-
To build with me
and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self,
that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties,
that victory over them may bear witness
to those I would help of Thy Power,
Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!

SerenityRUS · ~*Service Worker*~

LOL .. Pink .. I don't know if I'm offering myself up or offering myself up as the sacrificial lamb. It is good to be a bumble bee .. everyone keeps telling me you can't do .. blah blah and my only response is I'm sorry you feel that way or I just back way off because who needs that in their life. Just for me I find the more someone argues or tells me you can't because .. those are the moments things click right where they are suppose to be .. and I have hit a few road blocks that I'm frustrated with myself about however it will be ok.

Oh love that prayer and I'm going to look at my BB and highlight that prayer so that I remember I am so not the one in control here. I can hallucinate as much as I want to however it's just not the case.

I had to laugh last night watching my boy do his thing with his Magic cards .. he kept trying to shove me out the door and I'm hanging on with the tips of my nails. I left for a bit during the 3rd match which he did win .. lol. I did tell him the first few weeks I will be around .. very close .. LOL .. I may even play a bit we'll see. Just some friendly games, nothing on the level of what he does, it makes me LOL big time I had a good time last night just watching. One thing my guys at the other place learned quickly as much as I look like I'm tuned out and doing my own thing I'm very hyper aware there is something to be said for PTSD on a positive note you really are always aware in specific situations. I stayed out of my boys dealings with another man (I will be watching him) he tried to pull a fast one on my boy and I just sat very still and listened to what took place .. turns out that he handled himself great .. told the guy what was and wasn't ok and shocked the crap out of this man. I laughed to myself and thought yup .. that kid is so ok with where he is at. I questioned him later about it and he laughed at me and said I wondered if you caught that or not. I said boy .. when do I not catch stuff .. the very important stuff like that!! He said the guy made him feel wary and he didn't like the way he approached him .. I thought good .. he's got some good discernment. That really makes me feel good about what he has learned about people .. we are always kind however it doesn't mean we have to allow people who make us feel wary into our circle gut instinct is important. He has good intuition and I value that trait a great deal. I think the best thing I can teach both of my kids is knowing how to say what they mean, mean what they say and not say it mean, stand in their truth and know they have choices in any given situation regardless if I am there or not.

The job situation is starting to freak me out however I'm ok .. school starting will make it tight. It will be alright just we will get a late start to things. I am going to update my resume I think maybe it's to simple. I don't want to over think however I don't want to under sell either.

I messed up on my meeting schedule yet again .. LOL .. it's worded weird out here so I'm going to have to try a different one. I do like the meetings here I'm finding most people only attend one meeting a week out here during the day I don't know about the evenings .. you guys do not understand how awesome it is to look and say if I want or need a meeting I can find one. We had a total of 5 that I could attend and 2 of those were on Thursday and there wasn't any on Monday, Wednesday or Saturday .. so this is a huge treat for me.

Obviously I won't have the luxury of attending meetings at will once I start working too. So I want to get filled now and just keep topping off.

Hugs S :)

Debb · ~*Service Worker*~

Serenity, what is your son doing with his Magic cards? And so happy that you
have plenty of meeting selections. Updating your resume would be a good
thing, but I am sure HP has got good things in store for you!!

missmeliss · ~*Service Worker*~

I'm pretty awestruck by what you are doing and excited to hear about your progress!
Go girl.

SerenityRUS · ~*Service Worker*~

It's a neat game that teaches strategy, mindfulness, sportsmanship, humility, kindness and he's forced to read and do math. If I can get him to do the last two and he's not fighting me. I'm all over it. Magic Gathering is a game for him that pool playing is for me he's only limited by his imagination and I love that! It's chess with cards again just like pool playing is for me problem solving .. I solve world problems by taking a shower or playing pool .. Lol. I'm positive it's not that deep for him. It does force him to interact with men and I do think that's a way good thing because with his dad he sees the not great side of men with specific groups he sees the amazing side of how men can be .. However we have an agreement he's not allowed to seek advice from theses guys about women. We will figure something else out. Nice looking kid, 25 to be exact announced his age when he introduced himself to me .. I was unclear where to go with that lol! My son's response later was REALLY MOM!? My response was what did I do!? Lol!? I'm just there to observe that's it! I didn't encourage anything I smiled and nodded and gave the alanon answer of oh. Lol! D wasn't impressed lol he told me I look way younger than is right and this is exactly why he's my favorite son .. Lol. Watching him grow mentally and emotionally is a gift. I can see how much he's matured in the last 8 months.

Debb · ~*Service Worker*~

Love it Serenity!! I asked because I had never heard of the game before and it does sound pretty awesome!

SerenityRUS · ~*Service Worker*~

What I love is the fact there is actual interchange of ideas and talk .. it's completely awesome to watch him speak their language and have these eyes light up when I hear WOW .. that kid is something! It's not something accomplished over the computer which is HUGE in today's society.

It makes my boy feel good about himself that there are men who take a positive interest in him, unlike his dad who does his drive by's figuratively stating. The game play is a positive thing I'm hoping to get him involved with big brothers here in town I hope that the waiting list isn't so bad like it was in our area.

S :)

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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene