So I went to my first meeting here in town the other day and boy did I have a good laugh at myself.  I should add I had a good laugh with the God of my understanding. 

I was very proud of myself I was early 7AM meeting and as I watch the meeting fill I think to myself .. hmm .. there sure are a lot of men at this meeting and for me that says AA meeting not Alanon unless it's a men's only Alanon meeting and this was not.  I watched and observed saying hello and again ... oh this is funny .. this is so an AA meeting.  So finally a very nice lady comes up to me introduces herself and we start talking.  I say to her .. thinking this is not the meeting I'm suppose to be at, is there also an Alanon meeting at this hour.  She says oh no they have done away with that meeting grabs a schedule to show me and there it is on the schedule.  So she gets more people involved and I hear another lady say oh I took that meeting off the schedule it's not there anymore and we flash the schedule nope here it is .. lol .. I then add you might want to check the website as well because it's listed on the website too.  I thought I needed more coffee however I'm glad it's really not me.  This was a closed AA meeting and they asked if I would like to stay because they felt badly I had driven out there to find out there was no meeting .. lol .. one of the gentleman says oh you only need a desire to stop drinking and I teased with a wink what coffee??  I said trust me I'm just not the right Alanon person for a closed AA meeting however I will be back for the open AA/Alanon shared meeting without question.  Ironically it's Saturday at the same time I go to my open AA meeting back home.  We all laughed and I thanked them for offering to open the meeting for me, it was better for me to hit the Alanon meeting. 

The Alanon meeting was fantastic and I was very excited to go.  I will be going again tomorrow.  This is just what I needed and things are going ok.

I did decide not to move in with my girlfriend and her family.  I do not care for her husband, I don't feel this is in the best interests of anyone involved .. there are some major control issues and no one is going to tell me where I can get coffee from .. lol.  Where I can take my kiddo to play magic when they haven't been to the place boy and I found or how he needs to play Dungeon and Dragon's instead of magic .. I have had enough of controlling people in my life for a lifetime is putting it mildly.  There were other things that didn't feel right to me, I'm sure he's trying to "help" .. I just am so stubborn as soon as I feel someone is telling me what to do I completely lock up .. I had great Alanon responses .. LOL .. I'm sorry you feel that way.  Sounds like an awful experience. You might be right.  I understand that's your choice, my choices are different and I'm ok with that .. LOL.  I think we have agreed to disagree and silently agreed we are not fond of each other and again I'm ok with that too.  I would not want to cause any issues for my friend nor do I want to feel resentful.  Now I reserve the right to change my mind .. I just don't see it happening right now. 

I absolutely love Texas and plan on making it the best experience possible.  I do plan on being here for a long time.  The kids seem happy and are doing ok considering we are in cramped conditions at the moment.  We really are having a blast.  It's like a giant sleep over and every day we are giggling about something different. 

Starting to learn my way around in this crazy town too .. so very good stuff!!

Hugs S :)