I don't really know where to start cause if I start at the beginning I'll be typing all night and through tomorrow,lol,not that my life has been in any way a pleasant life in the last year and a half,well here goes the worst parts anyway yall know how hard headed I am ouch!!!!! My head hurts I get what I deserve believe me and I got it but not locked up lucky me yes I went back to the same guy it got worse of course he tried to kill me he put date rape in my coffee or whatever I was drinking one evening knocked me out cold for nearly 3 days I luckily woke up dehydrated so bad I couldn't hold my head up for days stayed disoriented for over a week took me a mth to really get myself back completely he even told me that I didn't get enough of whatever he put in me like die b die.i even got someone to take me to er the next day after I woke up they told me that I asked them to take me she was a freind of mine that didn't know wat was going on with me that all finally came back to my memory and I remember them taking a drug test and I told my freind why they take a drug test wen I just went in cause I was sick or I guess I told the er doctor that I had the crud or sines infection my freind said that I was so messed up wen I walked up into the er that yes I couldn't hardly even walk and I questioned and questioned about wat happened my freind said all she knew was that my ex fb and he has been out of my life completely now for 2 mths and I'm not missing him a bit more hate and bitterness than anything she said that my ex fb said that I'd taken a overdose of my anxiety med ....lie,lie,lie never e er have I ever done that and I saw that all my anxiety med was there none gone .wish I'd known to have had er dr run other test I went to med records and got my drug screen and it was all neg.no drugs in my system but they checked me for barbiturates,coca in,marijuana,and a few other just a pee test they didn't draw no blood.....so I don't understand why they didn't go ahead and check me for other things or took blood from me .thats been way back in the spring so that I guess I got to get over and get on with my life there's lots more to tell but that was the most closest I'd believe one could come to death,my system was so messed up that next week that I was in terrible pain lost 10 lbs in one week and kt on loseing weight had test ran said I had diverticulitis I was throwing up everything I put in my mouth I'm on plotonix now and zofran for my stomach my dr set me up with a gastrinologist but seems my system is finally straightening out I've rescheduled my gastrinologist appt as long as I got my plotonix I seem better all this happened in 2 weeks 1st week I was knocked out for days and nites and just few days after that I landed back in hospital er 3 or 4 x with bowing over stomach pains and throwing up.i know I've got a lot to go in recovery but I'm in no way fashion or form am I even looking or wanting another man for a long long time he broke me this ex did for sure. Sorry I've just rambled on non agin like usual but I don't think I know how to shorten nothing I got to tell its always a way long story. Thanx for listening and Ty deblyn for leaveing me a pm sorry I'm just getting it Deb I saw it was way back in dec. wen u left it but my eyes lit up wen I saw I had a pm.they are always fun to me to get cause it shows u care, thanx Deb....and I'll close this for now let everybody rest from me .been thinking about yall don't think I haven't my life just went into a one huge twirl for a while. I love yall....looking up and hope I keep looking up for the rest of my life cause I can't take no more that was enough I'm just happy to be still alive .