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Hi friends-Most days I do pretty well with coping, using my alanon tools, not getting dragged down into the old stuff, but I guess there is just too much stress right now for me to do well. And yes, this is just for today because I know tomorrow will probably be better. I felt like reaching out to you guys to get it off my chest. We are going to place my mom in a nursing home with her active, alcoholic to deal with who will make this difficult. There is uncertainty with finances as I wait for my son to get a settlement. My A has some health issues and of course is in denial about anything being wrong. I have family I love coming in early July to visit me from CA and I find my local brother giving me some attitude about it. I'm just having a rough day and I thought sharing this with my community would be a good step to take. I can't feel good all the time (wouldn't that be nice) and I do have hope I will feel better tomorrow. I have used the Serenity Prayer a lot today, and have let HP know that I need his help big time. I think I have some fear and I know only too well that this present fear is just a waste of time and energy. Yesterday I worked on getting my dad's death certificate and it made me really sad. Thanks for listening, Lyne
Hello Lyne, it does sound as if you have a great deal on your plate and at times this can be appear overwhelming. I like to remind myself that HP is in control and if I stay in the moment and in the day, placing principles above personalities, HP will give me the courage, serenity and wisdom to walk through each and every issue.
Being reminded of loss is not easy so that prayers and positive thoughts are on the way
You have an enormous emotional load to carry right now. Just know you are not alone. We are all here to send you support and hugs. It sounds so trite to say it will get easier, but just having been through a doozy (ongoing) it is really true that it gets better. For me it comes in waves. At first they seem like they'll drown you. Then they get smaller and farther between. I hope sincerely that things get easier for you very soon. Sending love,
Spooky.
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Peace comes from within. Do not seek it from without. Buddha
It does sound as if you have a ton on your plate and so sorry for the load.
It sounds to me as if you are doing all the right things - relying on HP and program tools.
You are not alone and I'll send positive vibes and prayers your way!
(((Hugs))) to you!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Wow, that's tough. I know you'll find the presence to keep your toolbox open. Be gentle with yourself, it's a rough time. Sending Compassionate Thoughts.
