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Skorpi
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu
My wife had a tab at the bar next to my office on Friday, which she swore was her lunch of perch fish, but the price point at that bar for lunch is 8.75, and her bill was over $26. She swore she had not been drinking, but she seemed pretty drunk to me, and despite the expensive lunch, was starving and whining about stopping for pizza. I didn't ask her about the drinking because I was pretty sure she had been drinking and why bother? She was only going to say she hadn't been drinking and come up with an elaborate story to explain away the tab. So, I thought I handled that alright, but it was a struggle.
And, my dad and sister were coming down to pick up our shared dog, but then my sister was sick and not coming, and so my dad stayed with us instead of in a hotel, and my wife had a panic attack at the grocery store (shaking, sobbing, feeling like she is having a heart attack, etc.) and is afraid of getting addicted to her meds, so wouldn't take the pill her doc prescribed for such situations. And, in a moment of weakness I agreed that she could get herself a beer to calm down. Which turned into a six pack initially and then drinking a liter of vodka while my dad was staying with us over night, resulting in my wife being drunk again.
Sunday, I should have been working on my edits since I have to deposit this week (final step to getting my degree), and instead of that, I ended up missing my dad and the dog terribly while I watched my wife get drunk again. I was not coping well. It is so hard for me to keep my head where it needs to be when I don't have some time away.
Thank goodness for Monday, and some time out of the house and away from my wife. I am doing much better today.
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Skorpi
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu
Thanks for the update. Skorpi, it certainly sounds as if you had your hands full this weekend. I am sorry that you missed your dad and delayed doing the necessary edits for your degree.
Glad this days working out better and I do hope you'll find the time to do that last step in the process of your PhD. You've worked hard and deserve it.
This is a difficult road that we travel and I'm glad we are sharing the journey. Prayers and positive thoughts on the way
Very Sorry to Hear you where having a Rough Weekend :/ I too Struggle a lot with My A's and Learning how to Decompress A Whirlwind Of Emotional Let Down :/ So Glad you Came here and Reminded Me in these times We are Human... and Sometimes we just need to Let that Out In order to Move Forward :)
Very Glad Today Brings You Comfort of a NEW Day :) One day at a Time :)
Prayers for Your Healing, and Prayers You Conquer that Final and Take Care of YOU :)
(((skorpi))) - thank Goodness for Monday - eh? So sorry for all the distractions/situations facing you over the weekend. The good news - it's already in the past and you succeeded by relying on your program. You made it to today - and it's a new day!!
Hang tough and be good to you today! Know that we are here for you and we're all sending positive vibes your way!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
...And, in a moment of weakness I agreed that she could get herself a beer to calm down. Which turned into a six pack initially and then drinking a liter of vodka while my dad was staying with us over night, resulting in my wife being drunk again.
Hi Skorpi,
She doesn't need your permission to get drunk. Giving her permission or not will make little difference. So you should be able to take that piece of guilt out of your weekend results. I'm glad you are able to come here. I've been in the situation of nobody answering the phone, that's one of the reasons I am here, somebody always answers eventually here!
Oh friend - I'm so sorry this happened. It sounds like a whirl wind, and a roller coaster and a big cluster. I really like Kenny's share.... you don't need to verbalize consent or permission. I'm tucking that away into my own tool box for sure!
"Sunday, I should have been working on my edits since I have to deposit this week (final step to getting my degree), and instead of that, I ended up missing my dad and the dog terribly while I watched my wife get drunk again. I was not coping well. It is so hard for me to keep my head where it needs to be when I don't have some time away."
I hope that your head and your heart are where they need to be. I hope you've managed to carve out time for you. Remember that as much dust and chaos as they stir up, we don't have to enter into it and be blinded.
When the school work settles - maybe schedule some time with your dad? Seems you've got a good one.
