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I remember the tension - having to smile and pretend I was enjoying whatever was being thrown at me because I didn't want to ruin the special day. "It's Mother's Day, I did "this" for you, why aren't you happy? Its a "special day" I can act any outrageously way I want and you can't complain because then you'll be the one ruining the special day!"
Oh how I love being alone when special days arrive - this morning I got up early and moved my bees another foot or so (slow process moving them because I missed the optimum time due to mangling my hand), I mowed too early - sorry squatters next door living in the motor home where they aren't supposed to be anyway but gotta make hay when the sun shines; I cut a bunch of branches and groomed where the bees will end up - go me, its ready for them now, they are about ten feet away now; I watered, moved the sprinkler and watered some more; watched the rest of a movie, drank coffee, moved the sprinkler, mowed some more, used the weed-eater to knock back the tall grass where the mower couldn't go; watered some more - its a watering kind of day eh? I'm STILL watering; barbeque is hot and burning off the remnants of LAST barbeque while I watch Sixth Sense on Netflix after pounding out a few tunes on the piano (re-teaching my hand to adapt to its mangled status). I'm alone, no special someone in my life and I could not be happier being able to spend this day in a way that pleases ME.
Soon I will eat too much, barbequed steak and half a baked potato with cream cheese sour cream topping, mmmm.
I used to dread "special" days - now I love them because they are what I want them to be.
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
Sounds like you're having a real nice day :) Thank goodness for Alanon. This program frees us. When I keep it simple, any day is "special." Enjoy! ((hugs))) TT
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Surround yourself with people and elements that support your destiny, not just your history.
Yay Sounds like a perfect day (except for the steak. I'll just have a big mushroom lol).
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
Sounds like a perfect day (except for the steak. I'll just have a big mushroom lol).