The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Since I came on these I'm beginning to notice some improvement, mainly in my thinking. I'm so tightly wound with anxiety but I feel the rope loosening around me. I'm putting a lot of emphasis on letting my HP's will be done and not mine. I am allowing myself to do more things that I'd usually refrain from in order to mentally control my situation. Things as simple as grabbing a bag of chips at the gas station that I'd usually avoid because my mind with associate those particular chips with bad thoughts. I know that sounds ridiculous but that's where I've been. I'm letting go and it feels good.
Big ((hugs)) to you, it sounds like you're on the road to recovery! I have to take it every single day at a time and remind myself constantly BUT I do pretty darned good at it most days. Remember to give yourself kudos when on every improvement, you deserve it!
