The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My intention for today was to be gentle with myself.
Then, I went to work and got to deal with a few issues, went to my intake appointment with a counselor who was really pushing me to do and commit to more than I felt I was able to do, got back to work and helped clean out the kitchen, returned to my office to deal with a frantic call from someone outside the organization and a difference of opinion with a few coworkers who are working on the same project, but that project has no clearly defined delineation of responsibility. (I say yes, someone else says no, and no one really knows who has the authority to make the final call.)
I started to feel overwhelmed, and like I was not doing enough. Then, I remembered my intention for myself for today and stopped by MIP for a dose of sanity.
I'm feeling much better now, and no where near as panicked by my various work issues.
You know, sometimes my wife says she doesn't like it when someone replaces an addiction or a problem with AA or AlAnon, frantically running to meetings whenever they feel out of control. But, I think for me, that is certainly the better option! Find a meeting, log in, recenter myself, and on with my day. Much better than having a panic attack at work or stressing myself out and rushing in to decisions I should be making with more care and deliberate thought.
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Skorpi
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu
The only people that accuse AA and alanon of trading addictions are people that need AA and alanon and are too scared to surrender. I am glad you took a self care break.
S what you have done is what I learned how to do also. It was part of the learning to let go and let God and God's other tools and helpers which God had/has everywhere. Oh at time others would say they didn't understand why the reaching out for help and I learned to handle that with empathy and compassion because I was there before I found the program. I like your post...it is good example. ((((hugs))))
Hugs to you skorpi. I know i work way too much
But your load makes my head spin. So be gentle
With yourself you have alot going on. Recovery
And healing take a tremedous amount of energy
And work. You need quiet time to process your
Feelings, emotions and thoughts. Keep reaching
Out to emotionally healthy and loving people.
They Will help you on your journey.
More Self love and self care are needed for you.
I struggle and its only me and the cat. I am Not
very productive outside of important things to Be
done. So i salute you and all you can accomplish
In your day.
