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I'm having some anxiety issues there is something to be said about not knowing how you feel about something .. lol. I didn't know it was anxiety and I was ok with that. Now I'm having nausea in the AM and waking up in the middle of the night. I have had a couple of nightmares. Needless to say I have court coming and I am not feeling settled as what has happened in the past over court dates. When he finds out exactly what I'm asking for financially he will hit the roof. I can tell it's already coming.
Work is work, however it's to much for to little pay. I'm not interested in continuing at this pace. I do not mind putting in a good work day, this is set up for failure kind of stuff. I am prepared at this point to say enough.
Outside of that things are not bad. I think part of my issue is I'm hungry .. lol that doesn't help. I do need rest especially after last night. Thankfully tomorrow is Friday. I am beyond done at this point.
I wish I could take tomorrow off it would help. I may talk to my boss we'll see how I feel at the end of the day.
Other than that .. it's all good. Court is on Monday of course the kids are suppose to see their dad this weekend. I haven't heard from my atty yet. So I'm just going to take it as it comes I guess.
Asking for some prayer and support. Things are really going to be ok .. I'm just wiped out at the moment. I need a good dose of recharge.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Prayers, Serenity--I know that the processing of feelings is difficult at times. Please remember that HP has not brought you this far to drop you on your head.
Stay in the moment and in the day,remember that you are not alone and that:"This too will pass."
Sending you a big hug and lots of support right now. Can you talk things over with your sponsor? I was having a lot of anxiety due to work issues and issues with my AD, but talking it out with my sponsor and my counselor both really helped me to get to a better place today.
Still dealing with work fallout from the escapes and staff quitting. I was also tossing and turning. Poor Chuck is sick though. It made him sniffle and snore. I had to get up and try to sleep in the spare bedroom. Reminded me of my ex-A. He snored so bad I could not sleep in the same bedroom. Keep trudging the road to happy destiny :)
Hugs, sweetie. Just sounds like you are burning the candle at both ends and going to court always wipes me out, too. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers and support and love today. God's got you and you're doing great. Just do the next right thing! HUGS!
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Never grow a wishbone where your backbone ought to be!
I keep reminding myself that, the God of my understanding has a horrible sense of humor. LOL .. seriously you wouldn't believe the week. By today even my boss was laughing about the ridiculousness of it all.
I got the worse news of the what might be, IF we have to go back to court for the kids and I to move it could mean another year in court. I'm just beyond furious and all kinds of lovely dark fantasies are running through my head. GREAT for my book .. not so much on the whole living in reality. Something that did come to mind is the fact that God willing I am able to get a good monetary financial settlement and the new wife looks at XAH and says OHHH HELL NO .. no more court. SOOOO .. we wait and see the next chess move.
Anyway, I'm eating so that's a good thing. It has helped and I'm exhausted so last night I slept very well!! VERY grateful for that it makes a HUGE difference.
Thank you I so needed some words of reassurance .. I am meeting with my sponsor tonight so I'm glad about it all.
Hugs S:)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
The drinking exacerbates it Fairlee, but drinking also usually goes with smoking and gaining weight so Blammo! There's the triple snore combo of alcoholism...
There were many times where I got worried if I did NOT hear him snoring because I wondered if he was dead. I say this even though I hated that loud snoring and couldn't sleep next to it. I know I was doing it myself in the later part of my drinking. It was bad.
It will be alright been there done that would not wish this much pain and illness on any one . It's very true what we all say this to shall pass . When you feel your anxiety go up step back from your self try to stop thinking long enought to know your gonna get through it and deep breath 3 times and relax let all the worries leave you . It's tough to do but you need to self care alittle or you will buckle before you go to court . And keep breathing exercises up when your dealing with this terrible situation it does work .
Please remember that HP has not brought you this far to drop you on your head.