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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
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Liquor used to be my friend. I used to have a lot of fun drinking. Practically all the fun I had was connected with drinking. But the time came when liquor became my enemy. I don't know just when liquor turned against me and became my enemy, but I know it happened, because I began to get into trouble. And since I realize that liquor is now my enemy, my main business is keeping sober. Making a living or keeping house is no longer my main business. It's secondary to the business of keeping sober. Do I realize that my main business is keeping sober?
Meditation for the Day
I can depend on God to supply me with all the power I need to face any situation, provided that I will sincerely believe in that power and honestly ask for it, at the same time making all my life conform to what I believe God wants me to be. I can come to God as a business manager would come to the owner of the business, knowing that to lay the matter before Him means immediate cooperation, providing the matter has merit. Prayer for the Day I pray that I may believe that God is ready and willing to supply me with all that I need. I pray that I may ask only for faith and strength to meet any situation.
________rosie..... food, fantasy were my friends, and i used to "hang out" with beer/ wine to numb my pain....i did it to escape...to numb my horrific pain....to medicate the raging demons within me.....when i came here and decided to let them "thaw" it damned near knocked me out!!! these things held me back from recovering...from facing the enemy....from exposing it and being able to release it from me...or release ME from it , i should say......i guess my main business is EMOTIONAL sobriety.....the "making a living" is just as important to me becuz w/out it i am on the streets.....but to make my living i need to be emotionally and physically SOBER......
________rosie.....i turn to my hp, for the power i need to do this....i cannot abstain from drinking or over eating w/out my hp working THROUGH me....the same for my escaping w/fantasy ...needing to be in control........i do believe that the source works through me becuz i do believe now.....i try to cooperate with the divine plan of my life......rather than give me up, i would like to see it as **alignment** ..... the surrendering my life and my will over, kinda triggers me becuz i had to do that with the perp and i LOST me......i suffered TOTAL "loss of self" ....so how about alignment??? how about cooperation???? those actions i welcome rather than fear....i guess that is the step 2-3 part of the program "came to believe" in a power AS i UNDERSTAND and can RELATE with.....i MUST believe, i am WILLING to believe that my SOURCE will supply me with all that i need....and maybe SOME stuff that i want....i mean what the hell, it is OK to ask for "want things" as well as "need things".....i just pray for divine right action in my life......
For me it's a balance between taking time to work my program, take time to meet my responsibilites and taking time for my family.
I can only do so much in each so I have to try balance each and be aware when sometimes one might need a little more attention than the other. Problem is then I tend to go full bore into thta compartment and through everything off kilter.
Bob
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You are a perfect child of God and God and I love you just the way you are! (added by me...in that special alanon way)
