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It appears A's bloodwork is getting back under control. He is getting out of ICU today and in to a regular room. Now his only immediate problems are the pneumonia and his blood pressure. They've been trying to get his BP down for almost a week with not much luck.
Tonight is my son's concert in St. Louis, we're all very excited. There should be a couple thousand ppl there along with a radio station. My daughters and their spouses are going along with about 30 of our friends. My younger daughter (30 yrs old) had a t-shirt made with hubbies pic on it so he would be there in some form. Whatever works for her..lol I think she did it more for my son. Hubby is a big part of son's music. He's always been very supportive. A was a musician too and his own father told him what a worthless pc of crap that type of career was and that he better get a REAL job. Talk about squashing a dream!!! A's Dad was killed in an air show accident when A was only 22. They never made amends. That was probably the beginning of his road to alcohol hell. My A has much to face and recover from, his Dad, the death of our daughter etc..I pray he can do it. I don't think he has come to terms with any of it, he drank his way through it all. BUT..it's not my stuff, and I know that. I just am hoping for the best and know that it's going to be hard for both of us. I have to try really hard to not be such a cody and feel his pain and take it on. I have years worth of my own. I'm hoping we can find a rehab facility that will include our whole family. And yes, yes...I'm taking care of me. I'm just rambling with thoughts :) The only thing I shouldn't be doing is going to this concert tonight, but you just try to hold a Momma back from seeing her baby at his first big show...lol I have a video camera, Vicadin and a cane..I'm ready!!!!
love y'as Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
A herd of buffalos could not keep me from being part of my son's success too! I hear ya, girl! Have a wonderful time! Congratulations on your son's success.
Love Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
I think it is remarkable that you can be so clear on what is the A's stuff and what is yours. I can get so over involved with the A's stuff. The other day he volunteered more about his family of origin. It is hard for me to stay focused on my own issues but I do. I stay right on top of them. I hope you are managing to get rest, eat well (those hospital cafeteria's are not the best). Sounds like your A barely made it through this one and you must have a great deal of feeling about that.
