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Shame-filled people feel that something is wrong at their very core. It is a sense of being bad . . .. --Susan Kwiecien
Nobody is rotten to the core. Whenever we start to believe we are bad all the way through, we can picture good things we have done, days when someone else was happy to be with us, and see for ourselves that we have many good points that outweigh the bad. If we have done something wrong, we must apologize and make amends. Making a mistake is not the same as being worthless. Mistakes are a natural part of living, not something to be ashamed of. Our freedom to make mistakes is one of our greatest assets, for this is the way we learn humility, persistence, courage to take risks, and better ways of doing things. All of us are valuable and lovable. How could we be otherwise? Since mistakes are natural aspects of growth, we can salute them in others and ourselves as signs of life and celebrate our ability to learn and to forgive.What mistakes have helped me grow?
_______rosie____________WRONG!!!! my perp was rotten to the core!!!!! NOONE i have talked with since "comming out with my abuse" can think of anything nice to say about this dead and "erased" from the book of life, dung heap!!! NOone-- everyone said "he was evil--don't know how to describe it--he was just evil---made my skin crawl--made me want to get away from him---scary--weird---".......there ARE people who are plain---stone---EVIL!!!!!! when the holy spirit "packs up and leaves" the person?? becuz of their choosing the darkness??? the demons have full control over them.....i know!! i saw it!! i lived with it----
my misfortune was being too young to be able to get away from it--- i was caught---trapped!!! but not now---i DO have a choice and the ability to take care of/ protect me NOW---
when i see evil now?? i get the hell away from it--turn it over to god, and RUN!!!!!! there is a BIG diference between sick and evil--- i was the sick one---he was the evil one----- i hurt me , mostly---- he either killed/damaged/tainted/soiled/diminished EVERY one he was around!!! i did a survey these past few years to see if ANYone was "sad to see him go" and not a one said yes!!! isnt that something????
one of my favorite sayings is "good people feel bad when they do bad----- bad people don't give a damn"--think about it!!! we felt bad enuf to drag our sick butts in here and say "i need/want help-- show me the way"!! to me?? that right there is the biggest amend we could have done--- AND it generated the forgiveness from the source we thought we did not deserve!!! we reached out!!! the evil pieces of crap do not!!
for me??? yeah, i have tons of shortcommings or "affects of the abuse and incest" but i am in recovery to either get rid of them or manage them-- i have made amends--i have "faced my demons"...becuz i am NOT EVIL!!!! i made mistakes--sure!!! lots of them--- things that hurt my ever being able to retire-- things that set me back decades-- but it was ME that i hurt the most--- there is no way i can "pay me back" all the losses, i caused myself do to my severe emotional and mental injuries, all i can do is "go on" do the best i can beginning TODAY, and hope i can attract a few "breaks" for to help my future, basically living and focusing on TODAY---- what can i do TODAY to make my tomorows a bit more secure?????
i will never call murdering a child's innocence/trust/love/mind/emotions/hope/relationship with self-god-life a "mistake"...... even tho i have come to "giving this over to my higher power" i will never ever ever call what he did a "mistake"--i call a "spade a spade" and he was a denizen of the darkness from the word "GO"--- i was the sick one!!! and i don't classify me or any of us working our asses off in recovery with a freak like THAT!!! not even close!!!!! we, those of us who are not evil, are human beings--- all precious and special under the universal creator--- we are ALL deserving and worthy of all the happiness we can "glom onto"--- the diference between us and the scumbags who keep doing their destruction and who take their wickedness to their graves??? WE are here becuz we want to "clean up our lives" and become blessings to ourselves and to other creatures---- they don't give a crap!!! it is as simple as that.....
my take on them now is to stay AWAY from evil----give it over to god as i RUN!!!! --- take care of me/ my loved ones--- and hang on to my god of my understanding for dear life---
my prayer to my higher power is to "enable me to STAY, each day , honest---open---willing and thus 'reachable and teachable' i pray this TODAY and every day of my life---show me how to be a BLESSING rather than a curse--- thank U , higher power"
Hi Rosie really enjoyed this post and life is about choices. The perpetrators of abuse have the same choices in life as all of us to redeem ourselves. One can only hope that karma is at work and eventually life comes full circle. Luv Leo xx
He had no right to do the things he did to you. Yes they were evil. Just a though have you ever wondered how did he get so bad. I wonder what went wrong in his life that he lost what love is about. Sometimes I wonder if their is a God out their. Why is he not talking to people like that. Is it that they are not listening or God only talks to those who beleive in him. Just thinking out loud. Keep working your program your doing great. We love YOU.
NIKKI_____________Sometimes I wonder if their is a God out their. Why is he not talking to people like that. Is it that they are not listening or God only talks to those who beleive in him. Just thinking out loud. Keep working your program your doing great. We love YOU.
ROSIE______ i wondered too, but now i know, thanks to this program......god CANT talk to people liek that becuz they pushed god out!!! even jesus said " U can't be luke warm-- either u r a spirit of the LIGHT or the darkness--"......i truly believe that when people stoop so low in the evil department, the holy spirit just gives up and leaves....the light will "woo" , but there is a time that it leaves.........i know what u mean though, nikki, i wondered the same things, kinda.......this program has enabled me to see a lot!!! and i saw , for the first time, a REAL God and i found it by being here!! its within me!! and it works THROUGH me-- just like the darkness works through the ones who give their souls to it--- i chose the light--- he chose the darkness...its that simple!!! and oh so sad that foks actually CHOOSE to give themselves over to the demons!!! oh well, he had a choice, so did i, and i thank my HP EVERY day, that i chose to get well, to reverse the evil and wound up here.........love n light/ rosie
