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I was accepted to go through a women's entrepreneur training program. After I was accepted I had my family if they would watch my daughter 3 evenings per week until the end of March when I would graduate. They said they would do it, no problem. Then the put downs and nasty phonecalls started about how I was wasting my time and what I wanted was ridiculous because I have a child. I spoke up for myself and now they tell me they cannot watch my daughter. I have no one to watch my daughter while I go to classes now, so my dream is in the garbage can. They think I should just get married and have a man take care of me because that's what they did. That is not who I am. My father refused to help me with college after I graduated from high school and I found another program where I can finish my degree(I have 60 credits already)in a year, so now this is gone too. I wanted to set an example for my daughter, but the roadblocks have been set. My family keeps insisting on me moving near them. I'm constantly being told that my father looks really bad(he has hep C and cirrhosis of the liver) and my grandmother is getting old and she could die tomorrow. I'm sick of listening to it. I hear it all the time. My mother calls me to tell me I should get cable TV for my daughter. I tell her it's $50 per month and I can't afford it. She tells me that it is not so. She doesn't do the bills! Her husband takes care of her and the bills! I'm sick of listening to their crap. They live in a fantasy world. I am NOT getting married so someone will take care of me financially. If I was a man, my family would be jumping to help me out. I need some prayers so God can work a miracle because that's what it will take to make this happen. Thanks.
I will pray that things will work out for you, u sound like a very strong woman. Maybe look into some help with daycare thru your school. Best of luck.
From my perspective I say can you limit how often you talk to your family? They just seem so negative and it doesn't help you at all. I think that it is so exciting about this women's entreprenaur program. Have you approach the organization about day care? Just a thought. Don't give up!
I agree, you might want to limit your contact wiht your family. It also doesn't look like it's a good idea to depend on them for help - the help comes with too many strings attached.
Another place to look for childcare while you go to your classes is local social services. Here we have several things - a government sponsored Family and Community Social Services, and a Catholic Social Services (you don't have to be Catholic to ask them for help). This is not Welfare, but organizations that help people find the assistance they need for problems just like yours. If there is anything in your town with a title like Women's Resource Centre, or Family Resource Centre, or anything along those lines, call them and explain your problem - they may be able to point you in a helpful direction. Also, the Employment Resource Centre - here we have a Federal agency that regulates things like Unemplyment Insureance. They put a lot of money and effort into training people for jobs, and usually have a budget for thngs like child care for those who are trying to upgrade their traiing in order to get better jobs or start their own businesses. There would probably be some red tape involved in getting any help from them, though.
Anyway, the point is, society has a lot to gain when people try to improve their lives, and there are a lot of programs and people out there willing to give a helping hand. It's just a question of linking up with them.
There's also a possibility that you could barter childcare for something else you could do for a person. Ifyou know anyone with children the same age as your daughter, maybe they would be willing to look after her in exchange for something you can do - homemade bread, yard work, you take all the kids on the weekend, something like that, who knows?
Thank you all for your support. An older man from Alanon offered to watch my daughter and he wanted me to know that he hopes he is part of my dream! More strings!!! Sickening, isn't it? It makes me so angry. God is going to have to help me out. I am going to talk to a friend of mine today, so we shall see.
I know how disappointing this seems at first glance. But while it is not working out the way you had envisioned it, I am willing to bet it is all part of God's plan for you. I reallly don't think He would of given you this opportunity and not worked out all the details for you. You just have to search them out.
There are other childcare options out there. A lot of them have been suggested here. And you know what, I bet they are better for your child than your family watching your daughter. She doesn't need to hear all the stuff they are shoveling out. Heck if you were near me, I would watch her! LOL
Look at this as an opportunity to show your family that you are worth doing this for, you can do it on your own and it will turn out wonderful.
Stay strong and for heavens sake, don't give up on this. We aren't talking about a long period of time. It will work out.
Sweetie, education is NEVER wasted. Your 60 hours will always be with you, and can transfer when you can go to school. As for the people trying to mold your life to their ways of thinking...tell them what you have just told us. Sometimes it is soooo necessary to make ourselves perfectly clear.
Can you look to some child care help through your state? Many states do provide while the parent is going to school. Is the course you want to take a state accredited one? That's important.
I wish you well along your way, and stick to what you believe. You can never go wrong doing that.
Diva
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