Hi (((friends))))

First I want to to thank everyone for their prayers and phone calls. You all ar so important to me at this time.
My hubby is still in ICU. As of yesterday he still did not know me, still climbing the walls and hallucinating. I'm also very grateful for my kids. They have truly rallied at this most difficult time.
My oldst daughter has taken the week off of work so she can take me to the hospital and run my son around. I still can't walk very well due to throwing out my back. She has been by her Dad's side as much as possible. He seems more settled down when we are there, if you can call trying to climb out of bed and pulling out IV's calm. My youngest daughter goes to the hospital before she goes to work in the evening. My son has been wonderful. He's been keeping the house clean, caring for the dogs, doing laundry and dishes. I'm truly blessed with wonderful kids. I don't have a clue what I would do w/o them considering I can't even get out of bed by myself.
This is day 4 of the hard core detox. Dr's have been unable to control A's blood pressure as yet, even tho he is getting meds for it every hour. It has been pretty constant at 165/113. Considering he had a stroke at age 42, this isn't a good thing. So far they haven't been able to get his fever down either. They did a spinal tap to rule out viral meningitis. They found some cells in the spinal fluid that shouldn't be there and sent them off for further testing. There was also blood in his spinal fluied but they said they may have been from the procedure itself. He has some pulminary problems going on too that they are looking in to.
All in all he's going through pure hell. No wonder A's are afraid to stop drinking!!!!!
I know it seems insiginificant, but even through hubbies hallucinations he keeps talking about how proud he is that our son was asked to play (guitar) at a place called Mississippi Nights in St. Louis . He'll be missing that, it's this Saturday. Son and him have been selling tickets for 2 weeks. It would be sons first really big gig with several hundred people present and a radio station. He'll be so upset when he finds out he missed it.
I'm taking care of me the best I can. I got on antibiorics for bronchitis, which is what caused my back to go out, I was coughing so hard and TWANG!!!! Couldn't move.
I have pain meds for my back that help some. I still can't stand up straight and have spasms, but at least with the pain meds I can get up. My daughter takes me to the hospital in a wheelchair.
I'm trying to keep the stress at bay, but have had to deal w/insurance company, get hubby on short term medical so we won't have a pay interruption. Of course they need a gazzillion things, a list of all meds he's on, Dr's statements, fax's blah blah. I feel like HELLO!! I can't walk!! I've done much of it by phone, luckily, but even that is tiring.
Last night when I got home I hopped in to MIP chat for a minute.., son had drawn a bubble bath, I got my jammies on, took my pain pill and don't remember a thing after that.
My daughter has some things to do this morning, so I gimped around trying to get showered and dressed. It only took me an hour..lol I guess it's an improvement, I couldn't even dress myself on Monday. I sat in my robe with a pair of socks in my hand crying, for 20 min. before I finally called daughter for help. I know that was stupid..she yelled at me for not calling sooner but she had told me the day before the baby was sick and vomiting and she had been up all night. I really hated to ask her to drive over and dress me.
Geez, whatta mess this huh?
Like I said, I'm taking care of me the best I can but there is much that HAS to be done. I've been designating jobs to people that can help and trying to do what I have to do.
*sigh, I've been through worse, we can get through this too.
Thank you all again for prayers, phone calls and a special thanks to jrtjosey (I thank God for you daily) You've been a rock.... and those special people that take time to PM with me when I do find time to get online. You all have been a great help in allowing me to keep the faith and strength in program.
Love you all sooooooo much..
with gratitude,
Christy
(Cjo)